WINGS OF MY HEART

For someone who’s pretty much a jinx when it comes to PCs, I’m quite proud of the changes I did to my blog! //proud//

It’s soooooo….. PINK! //laughs//

I was planning to add other stuffs and do some more changes, but suddenly I’m feeling lazy already. All these HTML codes gives me headaches, especially since I know I’m more or less guessing when I’m editing the template, sort of like a trial-and-error thing. Hm.. I’m really bad at this, ne? //grins// But really, I’m already pretty much contented with what I see. Anou, isn’t Ranma baring some skin enough already? //doubles over with laughter// Seriously, I just love that pix (it was actually a wallpaper done by someone who’s worth praising!). It’s so sweet… //smiles while looking at pix//

I chose the color pink as background because it’s so “soft”. At least when I’m ranting, it doesn’t sound too “loud”. //laughs// I hope the colors aren’t too glaring. Pink is actually my favorite color, next to yellow of course! Yellow is my most favorite because it is so cheerful and bright and happy (just like me!!! ^____^)

KOKORO NO TSUBASA. So why is the new title of my blog “Wings of My Heart”? Well, I actually got that phrase from the first ending song of Rave. I don’t exactly remember the song anymore, but I like that line in the chorus. It gives me a…. sort of “light” feeling. I don’t know why so don’t ask. ^___^

Also, I’m really feeling mushy these days. NO, I am NOT in love. //rolls eyes// (Well, except if you count Ranma and Kaoru-sama and Kawee of D2B and… //laughs//) I guess it’s because of the stuffs that I’ve been watching, and also because of the mush all around me. I wonder if this is some sort of stress reliever… ^o^

Well, I also think that “Wings of My Heart” is quite fitting since my blog is quite a mush zone these days. And it sounds nice since some of the things that I write here, well, they pretty much come from the heart anyway. //sheepish//

“Without love, we are birds with broken wings…”
(Tuesdays with Morrie)

REUNION

Today, we had a little get-together with some of my friends from high school. There were 8 of us, and we had lunch together at this little dimsum establishment. Then we went to the mall for a while to have our picture taken, and then we went to this little game-and-food joint to play chinese checkers. We talked a lot on what we've been up to and updated ourselves about the activities of our other friends. We joked around and teased each other like we used to. And we kept laughing so hard that sometimes it's almost embarrassing (but we didn't care anyway! //winks//). Somehow, even though we haven't seen each other for a while, but we just naturally connected and chatted as if we have never been separated by time and distance. And I think that is what I like most and what is so wonderful about our friendship. I like the feeling of being with the right people, the comfort of being with true friends. That no matter how different our paths may be, we still bond just like the way we did back when we were still younger. So I feel so happy today, that I was able to meet and have a great time with my high school classmates.

What was a little funny though was that at some point, I noticed that I was "set apart" again. LOLz Not that it bothered me, since I guess I've always been like that. Most of my feamle friends were talking about their works and their boyfriends, and so I really couldn't participate in their discussion. [note to self: must PROCURE a boyfriend before next year's reunion //laughs//] And I really wanted to join the conversation between G-kun and his friend since they were discussing animes and games, but they didn't invite me and I was too shy to approach them. //sheepish// So I guess at some point, I found myself in a little awkward situation.

But anyway, next week we'll probably have another get-together again, this time with the other classmates who weren't able to join us today. So I'm pretty psyched about it! ^o^

ITOOSHI HITO NO TAMENI

This is NOT a Fushigi Yuugi entry. //laughs//

I had another realization again last night. I thought that it would be really wonderful if you can have someone you can live for. Not that you cease to exist without that person. But you can become even better when he/she is part of your life. Ne? ^___^ And so how did I come about to that realization? The answer is pretty simple: AI YORI AOSHI.

Yep! Ai Yori Aoshi - the newest addition to my anime collection. I finally finished it last night, and I can only describe it with one word: MUSH. But it really isn't the gross kind of mush, but the sweet type, since the main characters, Hanabishi Kaoru (not in any way related to Hanabishi Recca o.0) and Sakuraba Aoi, show so much innocence and kawaii-ness in their relationship. //sigh// So envious ne. How can two perfect people be so perfect for each other... >.<

STORY:

Sakuraba Aoi has spent her entire life preparing for her bethroted, Hanabishi Kaoru. When she heads out for Tokyo to search for him, she finds out that he is more than everything she has imagined him to be. Kaoru is sweet, kind and an ultimate bishie, and the moment they meet, he also feels the same special bond between them. They start out a new life, and together with some wacky friends, found themselves a family that they could truly belong to.

CHARACTERS: One boy living in the same house with so many girls - doesn't that remind you of Love Hina? ^___^ The main male character is Kaoru-sama and we'll talk about him later. //winks// Then the sweet Aoi, who is the perfect wife any guy could ever ask for. Her sweetness and submissiveness reminds me of Belldandy. But sometimes Aoi has a tendency to nag and cry easily, but I just overlook that because she is really so cute! Then there's Miyabi-san, their kanrinin. She looks like a no-nonsense serious person, but deep down, she is such a softie. Then their friends: the cheerful and ecchi(?) Tina, the clumsy and uh, voluptuous(?) Taeko and her kawaii sis Chika, and the proud Maiyu. And of course their adorable pet Uzume! They are all funny and lovable characters. ^___^

MUSIC: Is awesome. I particularly like the OP, Towa no Hana. It is such a beautiful song with such a sweet melody that I actually sang along with it for all 24 episodes. //laughs// My sister was annoyed and kept saying, "Nee-chan! You really don't have to sing along with it, you know!" But I wanted to! //sheepish// The ED is nice too but I'm always excited to sing the OP so I usually just skip it. The BGM are sweet. The tunes are soft and pleasant to the ears, just right for the mushy scenes. //laughs//

ANIMATION: Kawaii de-su! The artwork often deteriorates or becomes a little changed in some animes, but here, everyone is drawn nicely from start to finish. Um... what is that term? Consistent de-su! And I really like the big-eyed, cheerful kind of artwork, so I guess I'm a little biased when I say that I like the drawing style. //laughs// Well, I'm not very familiar with techniques, but if it's pleasing to the eyes, then I guess that'll do ne? ^____^ But there is just one question: Why is it that Aoi-chan almost always wears only one kimono? I wonder if she even washes it. //laughs//

RANT:
Kaoru-sama! Kaoru-sama! KAORU-SAMAAAAaaaaaa!!!!! //squeals// KISSU SHITE!!! //kisses Kaoru-sama// GYAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! Kaoru-sama, AISHITERU!!! //giggles with glee//
Once more, I have snagged for myself another ultimate bishie!! //huggles Kaoru// He IS totally P-E-R-F-E-C-T. If I can ask God for that special someone, he would probably be almost exactly like Kaoru-sama. Tall, not so muscular and good-looking, with very refined manners and a gentle smile. He also has a good fashion sense! //swoons at the thought of Kaoru-sama in a turtleneck shirt with coat, nosebleeds at the thought of Kaoru-sama in a sleeveless shirt// And oh my, he is strong. He could carry a tank of LPG(?) all by himself. And in episode 4 where he takes off his shirt in front of Miyabi-san, I almost wanted to go near the TV and poke his muscles, if they were really as firm as they appeared to be. But of course I didn't do that. //sheepish// But physical appearance aside, what's really important is his character. Kaoru-sama is kind, responsible and thoughtful. It's easy to love him because he is totally lovable! I would be willing to serve him with all my heart and soul. I wouldn't mind cooking meals or cleaning the entire house just so he can smile at me and say in that kakkoi voice, "Arigatou, Misakichan." //swoons// And the way he loves Aoi-chan is enough to drive any girl crazy. I could take all the mush because when I see them gaze and smile at each other, hold each other's hands, hug each other, talk softly to each other, and anou... //squirms// kiss... somehow, I feel this certain warmth deep down. I suddenly feel so... un-me. LOLz! Why izzit that Kaoru-sama and Aoi-chan are so perfect for each other?! (because Misaki, they are anime characters! //rolls eyes//) Well, if I can have someone like Kaoru-sama in my life, I WILL PUT A LEASH ON HIM. And I will hold him tight and not let him look at any other girls nor let any girls look at him. //bonks self//
And that is the reason why, Misakichan, that no Kaoru-sama would ever come near you... LOLz ^__^

Sometimes I think I'm crazy, for describing anime characters as if they were real-life bishounens... ^o^

"Because of you, my life has changed...
Thank you for the love and the joy you bring..."
-song by Keith Martin

CHRISTMASU

MERI CHRISTMASU!!! ^_____________^ //throws confetti//

Yesterday was a pretty busy day for my mom and sis because they were the ones who prepared for christmas dinner. I, as always, was kept out of the kitchen because of three reasons: (1) I was too lazy to help out, (2) I might make a mess, (3) I had a visitor! hehehe My classmate went to my house to borrow some of my cds and I also showed her some of my stuffs like the video clip of "S" that I taped. She was quite impressed. We talked and talked, we forgot about the time. I guess when you're talking about bishies, time flies so fast.. //laughs//

Well last night we had a little gathering at home. Some of the employees my father works with went to our house for dinner, and since most of them were females, we let them watch....... our F4 concert VCD! hehehe Some of them were actually squealing with glee, and my sis and I just rolled our eyes and laughed. They left early though, I guess cos they still have to spend christmas with their families.

After we have cleaned up, we watched "KILL BILL", and I must say we were all impressed. The story is good, the characters are awesome (like, Go Go for instance!), and they employed very excellent and unique techniques! And of course, there were lots of blood and kick-ass action! //laughs// I really like the samurai stuffs and the animation! It's totally sugoi da ne! Can't wait to see what happens next. ^___^

After watching the vid, we didn't have noche buena anymore because we were still so full from dinner and my parents were tired and sleepy already. So they went to sleep. hehehe My sis.. well, I think she was busy texting. So that left me in command of the TV and so I watched AI YORI AOSHI, which is the newest addition to my collection. Many thanks to P-chan and Kleptobaks for this wonedrful christmas puresento! //hugs P-chan but not Kleptobaks// Well, I will talk more about that anime when i finish it, but now all I want to say is ....
"KAORU-SAMA!!! AISHITERUUUUUUUUUuuuuuu!!!"
(and so now you know I got myself another bishie again! hehehe)

Well, this day is family day and so we're at the mall now. I'm glad we have this time together.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! ^_______^

CRAZY OVER DEU

Haay naku. I am still having Deu and Jay "hang-overs". Imagine this, I have been playing the same Thai song (the one Kawee sang) OVER AND OVER AND OVER FOR THE PAST THREE DAYS! And I'm still not fed up with it. I still "fall in love" every time I hear the opening intro. I must be really really crazy noh? ^___^ It's a good thing my friend borrowed my DVD or else I would either be spending all my time staring at the box or playing the movie over and over, AND at the same time playing the song too. //sheepish//

I don't actually know the title of the song cos it's in Thai, and so I couldn't search for the lyrics yet. But I copied the translation from the movie:

I
There's something I want you to know
Something in my heart I never showed
And now it's too late
Since we've separated

I was wrong to let you feel insecure
I was wrong to neglect you
If there's any way to reassure
Give me another chance to be true

Chorus
Come back to me, just for one moment
Come back and listen to me
Just only one word from my heart
Let me tell you just once that I love you

II
Please forgive me and let me try
Please come back and reconcile
Just one thing and I wouldn't ask for more
Only to have you back as before

Sheesh. I'm having goosebumps all over and my heart is constricting even when I'm typing. >.<

And this is the theme song of the movie. Next to Kawee-Kawaii's song, this is the second song that I always play. And I also have a Thai version of it!

When I Fall In Love

It's the coldest night, people passing by
You will be the one that light up my life
When you're close to me, make me feel alive
Like never before, when my whole world had died

Painful memories, lonely places
I had been there a long time
Now I found you, where I belong
My whole life will never be the same

When I fall in love with you
Anything is out of the blue
In the dark night
There'll be sunlight
And you'll be the destiny that I'm going to
When I fall in love with you
Wishing dream is forever true
Having you right here, face to face
Let nobody else comes between me and you
When I fall in love

There will be no more, no more lonely night
I'll cry out no more, love has come ease the pain
Just to touch your hands, whispering your name
I can feel no pain, feel myself breath again

Sweet noh? hehehe~

Now I'm searching for D2B pix. They are just so adorable!!! :D Really a big thanks to my Thai friend, Pung for sharing this with me!! (hugz)

CHRISTMAS PARTY

Yesterday, we had our class christmas party to celebrate the season, to enjoy the end of classes for this year, and just to have fun! Even though it was raining hard, and the traffic was sooooo bad because of the Manila Film Fest Parade of Stars, yet most of us were able to make it at the venue. The place, which is the house of one of my classmates, is just great! They have this landscaped garden with fountains and mini-kiosk and lots of lights -- totally sugoi de-su!

We had dinner first, and we had lots of yummy food! We even had a whole lechon! ^____^ After that we had some fun and games, the funniest of which was the "Zipper Game" which we often play during parties but this time, for the first time, the boys were the one to hold the zippers of the females when the music stops. Of course they were prohibited from touching ("palpating"? hahaha) other parts except the zipper. //sweatdrops// Then there were also group presentations and what really surprised me was that one of my male classmates actually has a great voice. He sang "Kailangan Kita" and it was so obvious he was singing his heart out for XXXXX! hehehehe I didn't know he was the romantic type. ^___^

After all the activities, we exchanged gifts. For my kringle, I gave her a cologne and I placed it in this kawaii plastic piggy bank because she said she likes pigs. >.< I wanted to receive anime but the one who got my name probably didn't know much about anime shops here. She gave me a VCD of K-19 The Widowmaker and that's cool because I heard that it's a great movie and I've always wanted to watch it. She was really nice because she added a BEYBLADE HANKY OF RAY!! //huggles hanky// I actually saw it at the mall yesterday but decided just to buy it later cos I didn't have money anymore. So I'm extra happy. //huggles Ray-hanky//

After the gifts were exchanged and christmas wishes + goodbyes were said, we got a ride from one of my classmates and 5 of us were dropped off in this busy area in the city. We got into a motorela (which is a motorcycle-driven, 6+ people-seater public transportation here) and when we turned to one corner, I was suddenly alarmed when one of my classmates started screaming for the driver to drive faster. When I turned to look, some freaky guy with a furious face was running after us!!! It was a good thing that the driver drove faster or I don't know what would've happened to us! My classmate said the freaky guy was holding a knife! //faints// Well, I don't know if that guy has a grudge on the driver or he was a snatcher or he was just plain crazy, but it was really totally freaky!!!

Anyway, when I got home I was really poofed (but I still managed to watch Gundam W and Beyblade! ^o^). It had been a long day and I was exhausted. But I feel glad... because I'm now officially on christmas break! So no school for two weeks... YEY! I have lots of readings to do though, but it's OK. I'm still happy.

MERRY CHRISTMAS DE-SU!! //throws confetti//

THE GIRL NEXT DOOR

I finally got to watch the Thai DVD I received from my Thai friend. The title of the movie is “Sex Phone” (but it is not porn de-su!) It is a really really sweet romance-drama about finding true love. In fact, the story is not really that related to the title. Why did they give it such a title anyway?! It makes searching for pictures so difficult since a bunch of adult sites would come out when you type the title on the search engines. //sweatdrops//

SYNOPSIS: It is basically a story about two neighbors, Deu and Jay, who have totally different lifestyles and who always fight. By some unexpected twist of fate, they got to know more about each other without really knowing that it was the other. (Err, they were sort-of phone pals.) This just goes to show that sometimes, love comes to you in the most unexpected person. more details

MUSIC: The music is really nice too! My friend actually sent me some tracks from the OST first and that was what prompted my curiosity about the movie, because the songs are sweet. I particularly like the one Jay likes to request When I Fall In Love and the BGM when they got separated… um, I don’t know the title because it’s in Thai. //laughs// I will have to ask next time about the titles of the songs.

FAVORITE SCENES: Well, two of my most favorite scenes are:
1. When “Emma” (Jay) and “Kawee” (Deu) were talking, as usual, on the phone. Deu already knows that “Emma” is Jay but Jay still doesn’t know that Deu is the same person as Kawee.
Deu: I have something to tell you!
Jay: I have some thing to tell you too… (pauses) I like you…
Deu: …
Jay: I mean I USED to like you… but now I like someone else…
Deu: (dejected)
Jay: And that’s why I think we should end these phone conversations, because I think it’s unfair for both of you…
Deu: (even more dejected) I always thought that you were the one who can make me happy and depressed... So, (pauses) who’s the lucky guy?
Jay: Well, do you remember that neighbor I was talking to you about..?
(And Deu’s face breaks into an uber-happy grin and he almost flies off his seat! So sweet de-su!)

2.When Jay learns that her phone friend, her confidant, is the same as her neighbor, and she rushes into the rain without listening to Deu’s explanation. Deu then confesses her true feelings for her – on air. It was really sweet - the way he said, “Phom Rak Khun (I love you)... Do you believe me, Jay?” //swoons// Oh sweet!! ^____^

PICTURES:
This is Deu (played by D2B member, Kawee Tunjararak). He’s not cute de-su, but he has his own charm…


but he is a hottie here !!! //grins//


This is Jay (played by Punlapa Taylor). She’s really pretty and has a really sweet smile. Sometimes, she looks like one of my classmates.


Here are some of their sweet moments:




//sigh// When I was watching it, I actually didn’t want it to end. I just wanted it to go on and on and on.. but of course that’s impossible. //laughs// Well, I can always watch it again and relive the sweet moments, ne?

ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS... IS YOU

Naze!? Why is it that my heart beats for you...? Why is it that I love you so much...!?

It has been raining almost non-stop since Monday. And I really don't like getting mud on my pants and this slightly weird smell of my uniform which didn't get enough sun-drying time. //sighs wistfully// Demo ne, I love the rain. I've always loved the cool air on my face, the gray clouds in the sky, and the pitter-patter of the rain against the ground. I find it... romantic. And like a miracle that happens once every blue moon, I'm feeling quite romantic these days... //shy//

The first Ranma episode I saw for this week was the one about Pantsu-Taro, the poor guy Happposai bathed in Jusenkyo and now transforms into this bull-like creature with wings. He was actually quite a bishie too! ^__^ Anyway, what I particularly loved about that story was the last part when he was fighting with MY Ranma (female mode) and Akane was trying to pour hot water on MY Ranma. But Pantsu-Taro (bull mode) pushed the kettle away and it fell off the cliff, and Akane, losing all senses, leaped off to save it with her dear life. When MY Ranma saw this, (s)he rushed to catch her, like the way he usually does everytime Akane falls from somewhere high. And while they were falling, Pantsu-Taro throws a big boulder at them, and it was really a very scary moment! But MY Ranma is strong, and he has somehow managed to transform himself back to his male form with the kettle of hot water in Akane's hand, and then he manages to break the big boulder into smithereens. They land on solid ground, and MY Ranma poses, one arm raised in a very heroic fist, while the other arm holds Akane to his (ahem) slightly exposed chest. ^____^ I thought it was a very yummy chest, I mean, a very yummy scene. //sheepish// It looked like a cover for a paperback romance novel. ^o^

Then there was also that episode where a graffiti panda falls in love with MY Ranma. And he was just so sweet! That episode made me realize that MY LOVE Ranma is a very good actor. [note: isn't it that when he transforms into his female form, he would often express this special talent by acting so sweetly among boys or pretending that (s)he's in love with Kuno? //winks//] But in this particular episode, MY Ranma really gave it his all when he falls on his knees and pretended that the (ahem) "love" he and the graffiti panda have was just not meant to be. And it was just so cute when the panda transforms into this kawaii girl (she was really cute de-su!). But of course, no matter how many times MY Ranma denies it, he truly cares for Akane alone. Because when this monstrosity of an artwork grabbed Akane, MY Ranma loses all rationality and instinctively ran to her rescue. Like a dashing knight rushing to save the damsel in distress. And he yells "AKANE! AKANE!" and you could really hear the ebb of concern in his voice. And as he swiftly and effortlessly jumps from tree to tree, I realized that My Ranma, well.. //squirms// anou, MY Ranma has a um, how should I say it... MY Ranma has a "sexy" back. GYAAaaaaahhh!! //hides in embarrassment// Really! Hontou ne!! His back looks so firm and masculine, oozing with bishie manliness.. //hyperventilates// And don't get me started talking about his chest again, because I will not have the strength to restrain myself... //sigh// Now people will start to think I'm ecchi or something.. //wipes blood from nose// ^____^

And the Ranma Christmas episode the other day was enough to get me into the holiday season and totally sweep me off my feet. Cos in the last part, to Akane's amazement, MY Ranma bought all the items she wanted for Christmas. He was even quite shy when he said that he wasn't able to wrap them because he didn't have the time anymore. He gave her a little kawaii panda stuffed toy! I felt so envious ne because I'm also into collecting kawaii panda stuffs (for the love of Genma ^__^). //sigh// He was just sooooo sweet and thoughtful!!! Why is he like that!? And all those girls (Shampoo, Utt-chan, Kodachi) were just so selfish and possessive over MY Ranma. Hmph! >.< But it was that episode that made me realize that what I want for Christmas is not really all the animes in the world or all the J-Pop cds or anything material. All I want for Christmas is YOU, MY Ran-chan. I just want to see you, to breathe you, to smile at you. Even though you don't exist for real, I just want to love you.

I sound so crazy. I feel so crazy. I've never felt this way again since Kenshin. Hahay. Is this really...
...love? //laughs//

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HOW TO GET RANMA TO TEXT YOU
(for Globe Prepaid Subscribers Only)

Step #1. Dial 222 to inquire about your balance.
Step #2. Wait for the message that tells you how much credits and free texts you still have.
Step #3. Save that number in your phonebook as RANMA

So now every time you inquire about your balance, let Ranma be the one to tell you about it! ^__^

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I'm really crazy noh? x__X

* Kathleen [Meg Ryan] and Frank [Greg Kinnear] finally spill that they don't have romantic feelings for each other. Kathleen realizes that Frank is in love with someone else. They laugh over it, then..
Frank: How about you? Is there someone else in your life too?
Kathleen: (pauses) Oh! Oh no.. no...
(smiles wistfully) But.. there is a dream of a someone...
-Scene from You've Got Mail

LET IT RIP!

Don't laugh, but my latest anime craze... is Beyblade. //sweatdrops//

Well, the first time I actually saw it was about a year ago in in a chinese channel, and I actually did liked it. But I wasn't able to follow the series because I had classes. And then it became so commercialized, with the toys and all, so I lost interest in it. It was a bit too "kiddie" anyway. But lately, I've been watching it again in Cartoon Network, and I find it quite, well, exciting. ^__^ And I find "Ray" (the chinese kid) so kawaii de-su!! //winks//

I was so excited that I've been going to the mall looking at Beyblade VCDs (I'm planning to buy THE MOVIE once I find it) and looking at the KFC poster with Beyblade pix. //sheepish// Also, I've been trying to find the Beyblade english mangas in National Bookstores, and I learned that the first four issues have already been returned to the supplier. //sad// But actually I'm still hesitant to buy it, because I might not be able to afford collecting the entire set (and my obsessive-compulsive personality does not like incomplete sets >.<). I'm already buying W.I.T.C.H. every month and soon, Summit Publishing (the one that publishes W.I.T.C.H., Candy and I think K-zone too) will release Slam Dunk and OF COURSE I WILL BUY EVERY SINGLE ISSUE!!! ^_____^ It only costs PhP85 for 192 pages of to-die-for bishies!! That's really relatively cheap, especially if it will come in the same glossy pages as W.I.T.C.H. and K-zone. So that's why I'm not so sure yet if I will start collecting Beyblade manga, because I might not be able to afford buying three comic books every month. //thinks very hard//

Anyway, speaking of W.I.T.C.H., the recent issue is just soooooooooo kawaii!! Well, the new character is anyway!! LOlz ^^;; ERIC LYNDON. And he's Hay Lin's pseudo-bf. LoLz! I just love Hay Lin! Their first encounter is so sweet!! And Matt is jealous, and Caleb is still good looking. Hahay. //sheepish// It's like I'm just reading it for the sake of the bishies, noh? Hehehe Actually, I really do like the story. Especially now that they are battling Nerissa and that she has regained her true form. And I just love her followers! I forgot their names though, but they really are very interesting villains! And I like the free stickers that come with the comic book. Demo ne, I got the same stickers (the set with Hay Lin) for last month and this month. //sad// I would be willing to trade it for another set, so please if anyone wants to trade I'm up for it! Just so I can complete the little W.I.T.C.H. sticker album. ONEGAI-SHIMASU!!! //begs on her knees//

Ehek. I sound like a kid. Those who don't know me probably would be shocked to learn that I'm a full grown, 21-year old med student. And here I am ranting about Beyblades and stickers! LoLZ! Well, I guess that's just me being me. ^o^

Misaki Fact: Did you know that Misaki once had a Beyblade (the toy)? Yep! Her mom got it from one of her tutees and often at night, when taking a break from studying, Misaki would take it out from her mom's drawer and play with it! Unfortunately, Misaki's mom gave it to her little cousin, because she thought that Misaki was too old to be playing with Beyblades. Oh well! u_u

CLINICS - DAY 01

Yesterday, I had my first hands-on experience in History Taking and Physical Examination of a real patient. It was, hm.. how should I describe it? Well it was OK, better than what I expected. For one, our patient was a young boy and his case wasn't complicated at all. And, second reason, we had a nice (and kakkoi? LOL) facilitator so the "grilling" was easier and very informative. ^o^

I was actually a little late for Clinics yesterday. ^^;; And when I arrived in the surgical ward, my groupmates were already in the middle of the history taking. Ehek. Well, our patient was a young boy with a ruptured abscess on his left mandibular area. I was surprised that he was already 14 years old, since he looked very thin and short for his age, and this made me feel a bit sad. But even though he was shy, he was also quite cheerful and kept laughing and making a toothy kind of grin. And even though I have a hard time communicating with people I just met for the first time, but I tried to chat with him anyway. After all, our first lesson in this class was about establishing rapport with our patients. We were the first group to finish HT & PE (since it was an uncomplicated case) and so when one of the facilitators arrived, he decided to choose our group so that we could finish early. And I was pleased, because I really wanted him to be our facilitator for our first clinics session. ^o^

After the "grilling" part, we met as a group to summarize our data, and we realized that we forgot to clarify some things. And so my groupmate and I went back to the ward to ask the questions. When we were done already, I smiled at the boy and his mom and thanked them. Then I don't know why, instinctively, I just reached out for him. And he held my hand. And for a moment there, I just felt time stop and I felt a sense of joy. I don't know. Was it because he was happily grinning at me, even though I know that his cheeks were inflamed and probably hurt like crazy? Was it because he held my hand, and I realized that somehow, in some way, he trusted me? Was it because I realized that someday I can become someone who can help people like them who are hurting and are less unfortunate? I don't know de-su. I just know that his simple act of holding my hand has moved me. The human touch after all speaks in volumes and does not hide true emotions. //smiles// Ahhh...!! Why is it that I soften so easily!? ^^;; Then I smiled at him and said, "Yan, magpahulay ka ug maayo ha, aron dali ka maayo." (Yan, rest very well so that you'll recover faster.) He gave me the same toothy grin.

This is the start of the many many more clinics to come and (hopefully) a life dedicated to even more of these sick and less fortunate individuals. May God give me the knowledge and strength to make a difference for them.

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life.
They seem half-asleep,
even though they're busy doing things they think are important.
This is because they are chasing the wrong things.
The way to get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others,
devote yourself to your community around you,
and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."
(Tuesdays with Morrie)

LOTS OF CHEESE.

I can't help but notice them. Even if I try not to. They sit so close to me, it's virtually impossible to ignore them.

A lot of my classmates find them cheesy. Mushy. They are so uber-sweet that ants can build a Mount Everest of an anthill on them. But I think... it's just simply a normal picture of two people who are deeply in love. IMHO, they are not at all "inappropriate" or "gross". In fact, I find it like a beautiful reflection of what true romantic love could possibly be. Hm.. I don't know desu. //bonks self// How could I possibly know what true romantic love is like!? o.O

Every time they look at each other, their expressions soften. He picks up her things when class is dismissed, and sometimes, even carries her (girl-ish) bag for her. >.< When there are notes to be photocopied, either of them would always request for two copies. They would often give an encouraging pat or squeeze on each other's arm, or give a light tug on the sleeves to call the other's attention. Once I saw her laughing and trying to jokingly distort his face. I think it's sweet. The human touch, I mean. It speaks in volumes, and does not hide the true affection.

Yesterday I asked him why he rented a VCD of the romance genre, since he doesn't seem to be the type to watch those stuffs. His expression softened, and he shyly replied, "It's because she likes it." ^^;; Another classmate commented that he is a "good" guy, and he said that she should tell it in front of his girlfriend, to further impress her. I was a bit surprised, because it was actually my first time to learn that even two people in a secure relationship would still want to continue to impress each other. //sheepish// I related to him what was mentioned during our pep talk session, the one about "falling in love" as the cause of flunking med school. He indignantly defended that the statement is unfair. Hm.. I also thought it was a biased conclusion. I believe that it is not the relationship that should be judged, but the responsibility and motivation of the students involved. And I think in their case they have proven the statement wrong by doing well in our classes and even appearing in the honor roll. Instead of having detrimental effects, I think their relationship has made them even more inspired to do well. (Hm.. perhaps to further impress the other? //rolls eyes//) I hope they'll forever be that way. It would be totally sad to break such a beautiful picture.

Corny? Mushy? Cheesy? Who cares about being corny, mushy and cheesy if you are truly happy and loved and accepted? Who cares about what other people think when someone whom you think is special and important, thinks you're special and important too? I think love, when it is true and sincere and God-given, is beautiful. I think it was made to be that way.

And now I shall eat my lunch. Because obviously, the lack of food has impaired my rationality. LOLz ^___^v

"I want to eat takoyaki too, with a special person.
I want to say, 'I was born to be with you',
and someone special will be waiting for those words."
(Honda Tohru, Furuba)

ONE LONG WEEK DOWN, TWO MORE TO GO

I AM SOOOOOOOOOooooo TIRED!!!!! o_O

I had a long week. I had long exams in Patho, Pharma and Surgery -- my three "most favorite" subjects. //rolls eyes// I had lab sessions, oral recitations, a short quiz. I also had met up with my scholarship counselor, and attended a pep talk session for the scholars. And now I just got back from a long meeting for our Pharma case presentation.

Tsukareta ne.

I am actually quite worried about my scholarship. //very sad// Because if I do not maintain my grade, they will probably take 10% off, and so that might mean "Sayonara Med School" since I don't think my parents can support me financially. Besides, it was my decision to go to Med school, so I should be responsible. //sigh// I am so tired, so confused, a little worried and well.. a little lonely too. //sheepish// I guess I have isolated myself from so many things because I have no time for them anymore. But yah, it was my decision. My responsibility. And I never have any regrets. I think if I fail to continue something that I've started, like, (God forbid) if I flunk Med School, I think I will become the most depressed person in the world, and I will never be genki forever. Because I will forever be a failure. And I was never a failure... //sad//

But! //smiles and pushes the bad thought away// I think I will just have to try even harder (yes, even in Surgery) to redeem myself. I actually don't feel so good about myself anymore. I've always tried to do my best in everything, but now, somehow I'm not being effective at all. I MUST TRY EVEN HARDER DE-SU!!! >.<

YOSH! Next week: I have a lab exam, a short quiz, a long exam, a case presentation and clinics. Darn. It will be my first time to examine a real patient and i have no idea how to do it! O_o My classmates who had clinics yesterday looked so drained and a bit traumatized. //fearful// I hope I don't get traumatized!!

Then the week after: lab exam, 2 long exams, a report in surgery, 2 written reports and, before the much-awaited break... our Christmas party de-su! ^____^ I wonder what I will get for Christmas? Ehehe ^^;; I actually need a new English dictionary but it doesn't seem right to ask for such an un-cute thing. ^^;; So I just wrote in the Class Christmas List that I want anime. //laughs// As if I ever wanted anything else in life. Well, i was tempted to write "the CD of Korean pop Group, S", but I doubt anyone in class knows them... Ehehehe ^^;; Me and my bishounens. //sheepish//

Oist! Speaking of bishounens, I saw my sempai yesterday!!! WEEEEEEE!!! I haven't seen him for months since he's a senior clerk now. He's totally kawaii!!! ^__^ We didn't talk or what (cos we're not friends, hehe) but when I signed on the attendance sheet (because it was the pep talk session for the scholars), I noticed that our names were next to each other!!! WEEEEEEE!!! I felt so happy that our family names are almost similar. //grins//

Anyway, I realized something today. Well, actually I already thought about it a few days/weeks back. It's HIMITSU de-su! But I still wanna say that...
I'm totemo ba-ka de-su!
That's all. >.<

HOW IS IT POSSIBLE...!?

Issue #1: Why Ranma is THE Ultimate Bishie...
(aka "Why The Real Identity of Akane is Misakichan")

How is it possible to love an anime character more and more and more each day!? It is totally not possible! But grabeh na jud ni, Ranma has totally captured me mind and heart and soul, "sa isip, sa salita at sa gawa". LOLz Suffice it to say that if it is only possible to get inside the TV set, then I would also give my all to fight Akane, Shampoo, Utt-chan and Kodachi -- for the love of MY Ranma. ^o^

Lately, the "new" Ranma episodes in AXN are really focusing more on Ranma x Akane's feelings for each other. Like, when they're together, Akane is often blushing, Ranma awkwardly looks away, and they have these "Oh-SWEET! moments"... (sighs deeply) Akane is really lucky. Because it is so obvious that Ranma truly, sincerely cares more for her, even if he'd rather die than admit it. >.<

In the episode where Ranma turned into a flirt because he used Happosai's love-potion-soaked-sticking-plaster (band aid ^o^), I was totally dumbfounded with glee. (But then, whenever I watch Ranma, I'm always dumbfounded with glee! ^o^) I absolutely love the last part, when Akane fell off the building, screaming "Raaaaanmaaaaaa!!!", and Ranma yells, "Akaneeeee!!" and instinctively runs to catch her, at the same time using his body to shield her from the fall. Notice that even at the brink of "death", they still call on each other. Grabeh na jud ni. Then, Akane bursts into tears as she looks at Ranma lying on the rubble...

Ranma: (squinting, obviously in pain) Your crying face is cute too...
Akane: BA-KA!
(Akane then lays her face on Ranma's chest, sobbing.)
Ranma: Is this also because of the sticking plaster? Why... is my heart throbbing?
(Then Utt-chan and Shampoo arrives and in obvious jealousy tells them that the band-aid has long fallen off Ranma's face...)

GYAAAAAAA....!!! Totally to die for! (grins) How is it possible for such a bishie to exist!? It is totally not possible! >.<

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Issue #2: Why We Failed to "Wish" Last Night...
(aka "Why We Love HaoYang and Not Mason")

How is it possible to miss an episode of "Xing Yuan" (Wish) when the story is already at its climax!? It is totally not possible! But grabeh jud ni, P-chan and I almost missed it last night! My family went out for dinner, and so we arrived home late! I missed like an hour of the episode and was only able to catch (and tape) the last 30 minutes. P-chan is obviously in the dumps, because she totally missed it because she had a meeting last night. We do hope to catch the replay once we figure out the schedule for replays.

Lat night, I was planning to just let the VHS player roll and not watch the episode cos I still had to study. But grabeh na jud ni, I couldn't get away from the TV. (sheepish) I was actually getting annoyed at the main female character (ZiXing) already because she was always clinging on to her past memories and couldn't move on. And here was a guy (HaoYang) who, although not-so-super-cute, was always doing super-sweet and super-cute things for her. This guy is a breed of his own. It is absolutely impossible to replicate his thoughtfulness and caring ways. But the ba-ka ZiXing actually dumped him for this other guy, Mason (who was better-looking but is not at all my type). I cried when I saw the scene:

ZiXing: (crying) I beg you, please leave me... please leave me...
(HaoYang, in pain and in tears, touches his finger to her forehead)
HaoYang: I'll make your wish come true...

How can one actually be so blind as to let go of such a love and happiness!? Ba-ka no onna. And then she learns that Mason is going to marry another girl, and that he is too cowardly to fight for her. And so ZiXing, all alone, weeps silently in her room. Then her phone rings. It was HaoYang, trying to reach her. Her phone rings again. It's still HaoYang, wanting to comfort her. She rejects the call. How can she possibly face him at that point!?

Then she receives an SMS message, from HaoYang. It reads,
"You yi ge nan hai xi wang yi ge nu hai huei dao ta shen bien... Ge shi na ge nu hai bu zhi dao kai zhe me ban zai hao..." (There is a boy who hopes that a girl would return to his side... but the girl doesn't seem to know what she should do...)

And then background music belches out the chorus of Melody's song, and tears start streaming from ZiXing's eyes, and the episode ends. Tsk. My face was all blotchy after I saw that scene. I was so... moved. LOLz Who cares that I still have an exam the next morning!? (sheepish)

How is it possible for such a love-so-great to exist!? It is totally not possible! >.<

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Issue #3: Why Your Face Lights Up My Day...
(aka "Why 'I Swear' To Love Lee Ji-hoon")

How is it possible to listen to a song and stare at a face over and over, and still feel as if it's one of the best things in life!? It is totally not possible! But grabeh na jud ni, I am totally totally totally obsessed with Lee Ji-hoon!!! LOLz I actually taped the performance of "S" on Showking M. And so now everytime I get the urge to listen to "I Swear" and look (and fall-in-"love" with Lee Ji-hoon ^__^), I pop in the tape and play it over and over and over. Even at the middle of the night. Or so early in the morning. Or just whenever I'm near the TV. LOlz I'm so... crazy. ^o^ Fangli said she was able to download most of their songs. How is it possible for her and not for me!? (sobs!) Wait.. I can answer that. Because... I don't have a PC? (laughs)

How is it possible for such a sweet song and such a to-die-for bishie exist!? It is totally not possible! >.<

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Whew! Quite a long entry today. Hehehe And I just ranted about bishies. Shame on me! >.< Actually, I'm very tired from school, and this fan-demonium is presently my ONLY social life (believe me, it is. u_u) ..... Hey, I just remembered that I saw Park Young-ha in Kelly Chen's music video.... and grabeh na jud ni, he's totally to-die-for, with wavy locks of hair you'd want to run your fingers through... (hyperventilates)... And I also saw LeeHom on TV... (nosebleeds)... and... (swoons)

Bah. I'm going home. All these bishie talk is making me dizzy... ^^;;