Saturday, February 28, 2004
The fate of my life wll be decided by the outcome of the next three weeks...
Well, OK. The fate of my life ACTUALLY lies in God's hands... LOlz I was trying to be a little dramatic... ^^;;
OK.. the month of March is just a corner away. What does it have in store for me?
WEEK ONE: Fourth Bimonthly Exams
March 1 (mon) - Pathology (lecture and lab)
March 2 (tue) - Psychiatry
March 3 (wed) - Pharmacology and Therapeutics
March 4 (thu) - Medicine
March 5 (fri) - Parasitology (lecture and lab)
March 6 (sat) - Surgery
WEEK TWO: Final Exams
(coverage from the very beginning o__O)
March 9 (tue) - Pharmacology and Therapeutics; Research paper deadline
March 11 (thu) - Medicine
March 13 (sat) - Surgery
WEEK THREE: Final Exams
(coverage from the very beginning o__O)
March 15 (mon) - Psychiatry (am); PCM (pm)
March 17 (wed) - Pathology (lecture and lab)
March 19 (fri)- Parasitology (lecture and lab)
Yes. I am in really big trouble. I am gonna be so so DEAD. And everything starts on Monday na! o__O
Well if I don't come back to blog, at least people will know what happened to me... x__X
I'm watching Boys Be again. It's really one of my most favorite animes! ^___^ Somehow, each episode always leaves a bittersweet feeling within me... Anyhoo, I just want to write some of my thoughts about it...
SUMMER: BASEBALL LOVERS
"You don't need a reason to like something. When you like something, you just do." -Horikawa Natsue
Nee, I really love this episode! I am such a big fan of Kenjo x Natsue! Somehow I see in them my ideal picture of what a couple should be. ^__^ I think it's wonderful how Natsue changed Kenjo, how her cheerful disposition somehow influenced him and gave him direction and encouragement. I wanna be like her. I want to make a difference in other people's lives, especially to those I truly care for. Ehek. ^^;; And Natsue reminds me a bit of myself, although unfortunately, I am not that cute... ^^;;
"Sempai, will you spend New Year's Eve with me?" -Horikawa Natsue
I also love the concept of Kenjo being a little too tall for Natsue. ^__^ I think it is really cute when a girl has to sort-of stand on tiptoes and the guy has to stoop a bit to uh, kiss. //blushes and pictures New Year episode// Anou... //squirms// I don't think that will never happen to me though because I am relatively tall... Oh well. ^o^
"Not by letter.. not by phone... I just want to see him..." -Morio Junna
Also I really felt all mushy and impressed in that "Morijun episode" when in the end, Kenjo called up Natsue cause.. well, wala lang. ^^;; I think Natsue was probably feeling a little insecure that's why she kept calling him. And well, sometimes boys can be so insensitive! Lolz ^__^ I am happy Kenjo realized this eventually, that well, sometimes when you communicate with people you care for, you don't really need to have any reason. I guess when you're in love, you can be a little uh, "unreasonable"? o__0 I really don't know de-su! //laughs//
AUTUMN: SWALLOW
This is my ULTIMATE MOST FAVORITE episode! It not only has powerful BGM ("Memoria" rocks!), it always, always leaves me overwhelmed with emotions. Ehek.. ^^;;
"Aki, Yumi, will you go to the shop with me?" -Nitta Chiharu
Chiharu - I think she's really a um, "lousy" girl. (Actually, I want to call her something else but I don't want to say foul words ^^;;) And I think this is one of her ultimate "cheap" moments. My gosh, she actually has the nerve to act all maarte. Feh. I think people who do not know how to be faithful to the one they love should be drowned in the Marianas Trench. I can't believe she actually kissed that guy! Maybe she was lonely, maybe she was carried away with her emotions, maybe the guy was just too tempting, but D-U-H! Mind over heart de-su! A guy back home loves you and you go around flirting with another guy!? AND KISSING!? 0___o But I guess everyone makes mistakes and everyone deserves to be forgiven and given a second chance. At least that's probably what Himura Kenshin would say. But if it were up to me -- two words: Marianas Trench. ^___^
"I like you Kyoichi... but... I don't want to be Chiharu's replacement.." -Sayama Shoko
Kyoichi - I sympathize with him because I know his heart is broken. Very very broken. So give the guy some credit, at least he's trying to move on. But anyhoo, what really made me angry was this: Sayama tells him how she truly felt but makes it clear that she is no panakip-butas, and when she starts to walk away, he wraps his arms around her and tells her, "It's not like that". And this is what really bugs me so much: he didn't show up for their meeting! (And he lost that bracelet she gave him. Feh.) Anou, I know he didn't mean to do what he did, but I am really pissed off at people who do not keep their word! For me, they are really the worst kind. Because when you say something, you should be honest and you should mean it. When you say... promise... something, especially when it's important, the one you're telling it to would believe you and would be keeping such hopes and expecting you to keep your word. I mean, that's why promises are made right? So that they should be kept? And so if you don't keep your word, you would be dashing the hopes of the other person. You would be destroying something important to that person. I think that is probably the worst thing you can do to another. I really hate those kinds of people. So that's why I got pissed off at Kyoichi. Because I think he really wasn't serious about Sayama. And I think that really sucks, because Sayama was WAY TOO COOL.
"If you're not brave, then nothing can begin" -Sayama Shoko
This is, like, my most favorite quote of all time! I use it almost always to remind myself to be a lot braver and a lot stronger. ^o^
Anyhoo, Sayama - She's really something. I don't know how to describe her, but I can understand why a lot of people like and admire her. I was overwhelmed when she broke down and yelled, "Do you think one can be so strong so easily?! Do you think one can change so easily?!" You should really give her some appreciation. It's not easy to be different and to stand up for who you are. I think she should really be admired for her strength. And I think Kyoichi overlooked that. He was always saying "daijoubu" when in fact he doesn't even know. So I think Sayama (and also Chiharu) was right when she yelled at him and said, "Alright!? How can you say alright!? You don't know anything!" I think if you truly care for another, you would try to be a lot more sensitive to his/her needs and to do this, you should try to know him/her more. Because I think couples have no right to be couples if they don't really, sincerely care about the feelings of the other, ne? ^__^ So I think both Sayama and Kyoichi were indirectly using the other to fill the void in their hearts. Both were trying to run away from the pains of reality. And I think it was good that they realized this in the end and went their separate ways. Because I think it is only when you can overcome your fears alone that these problems truly go away. It is not the responsibility of another to erase them for you, although that can help. So once again, as I always tell my friends, "It takes someone to forget someone" is crap. I don't buy that.
Oh yah, I was talking about Sayama. Ehehe ^^;; (When I talk about my principles in life and my favorite anime, I tend to get carried away! LOL) Now where was I? Oh yah, I really like her. She lives up to her true self and stands up for who she is! I want to be like her. Although... I think I'm still so and so. ^^;;; There are still lots of things that freak me out, like what we did yesterday in class - practicing insertion of endotracheal tube and urinary catheter to a simulator model. I need to have a lot more confidence in myself. I need to believe more in what I can possibly do, of who I can possibly be. Demo ne, I realized when I was watching that episode that even strong girls like Sayama break down as well. Even strong girls fall in love sometimes. And even strong girls run away. After all, strong girls are still human. Hm... yah. I think I like what I just wrote. LOlz
Anyhoo, I would love to discuss more about Yumi x Makoto, or about Kyoichi x er, Yokota (WAAAA!! yaoi de-su! o__0), but it will really take lots and lots of TIME, which is something I don't have right now. Ehek. Actually, I shouldn't even be online now... ^^;; But anyhoo, P-chan and I used to talk about each of us having a "Boys Be" kind of love story someday. Hm.. Will we? o__0 LOlz! But if something like that does happen to me (although that would still be like, hundreds of light years away ^^;;), I'll be sure to let you know... //winks//
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
Now I know why I had that dream the other day. It was a premonition... of what is to come... ^____^
Yesterday morning, we had our presentation for our Pharma research project, and I expected that the profs would be doing a lot of grilling about our study. However, much to my surprise, they really didn't ask that many questions. I mean, nothing that our group leader couldn't handle. (Ehehe.. ^^;; Well, as members, we were also up front for uh, support! LOLz) The profs just made a lot of corrections about our paper's format, and not about the study itself, so I was very very pleased. ^____^
So there I was, feeling quite happy, and on my down from our room, when I was suddenly confronted by a lot of senior clerks from nowhere... (Well, OK... they came from the canteen and not really from nowhere. ^o^) Anyhoo, it was quite a surprise to see them actually because we never got to see much of them during the year because they were always on duty at the hospitals. So anyway, I was on my way out the door when suddenly I looked up and there he was - right in front of me! - my dear dear sempai... ^___^ He looked at me.. I looked at him... We looked at each other. Then he smiled.. and I smiled (shyly ^^;;)... and then he said, in a very soft, almost inaudible voice, "Hi..." And then... well, and then he went on his way. LOlz But that exact moment I thought to myself, "Oh my goodness! When did my sempai grew to be even more bishie-ous!?! It should be a sin to look that good!" LOlz!! ^o^
So that simple encounter... that sweet smile... that simple "Hi"... lifted up my spirits the whole day yesterday... and even up to today. I guess I am so easily pleased! LOlz Sometimes I would just space out and smile... My gosh. I feel so stupid! Lolz! Actually, hm.. nakilig ko. //laughs// I am actually surprise that I am still capable of feeling such emotions. Lolz! Lolz!
When I see you smile, I can face the world.
Oh.. You know that I can do anything...
When I see you smile, I see a ray of light.
Oh.. I see it shining right through my life.
When I see you smile...
Baby, when I see you smile... at me...
Corny. //laughs//
Sunday, February 22, 2004
This morning, I woke up feeling really really good. I woke up smiling. I dreamt of my sempai. //sheepish//
It was a pretty weird dream, with lots of very weird settings, but at one point, we were all sort of in a big college of medicine celebration, and all the med students were there, and of course, sempai was there. And then I was talking to one of my classmates, and he was sitting nearby, and HE TALKED TO ME!! //sweatdrops// And as usual, I became so flabbergasted as to forget any forms of speech! Lolz (I am still speechless in front of him even in a dream! Lolz) And then my friends and I sort of went up to this stage, and he was also there (why is he following me? LOL), and then HE TALKED TO ME AGAIN! He asked me if I brought my laser pointer with me (ara!? why would he ask something like that?), and I said I didn't bring it and that if he needs it, I'll bring it next time for him. He replied saying, "Call me when you have it already." and I was like so nervous, and I said haughtily, "Why should I call you? Besides, I don't have money." (Ehehe ^^;; I'm still broke in my dream. Ehek.) And then he said, "Oh yah. Right. SO CAN I HAVE YOUR NUMBER?" And I was like so dumbfounded that I forgot what my cell number was! I stammered and said that I am going to get my phone so that he could uh, copy from my phonebook... HAHAHAHA ^O^ So cute. And all that time that I was trying to look for my cellphone, he was looking at me and well, just looking cute. And then I woke up.
Ehehehe ^^;; Why did I have that dream? I haven't seen my sempai since.... hm... oh yah, since we met at that convenience store last month. And I don't like him anymore! Besides, I won't see him anymore forever(?) cos he'll be graduating already, and he'll go to Manila for his internship and then I don't know what will happen to him after that. (Oh yah. And he's assigned to this hospital in Makati(?) with this female classmate he supposedly likes, and I totally hate. BAH!) Demo, I felt really good when I dreamt of him. Why's that?
And as I lay this morning in my bed, smiling, I remembered that we did became textmates for a while. Well, OK - for one night. LOLz Anou... //squirms// During my first year, because I really really really really liked him then, so I would sometimes borrow one of my mom's extra sim cards, and forward quotes to him! LOLz (You don't even have to ask where I got his number cos I have my "connections"! LOLz I have friends who are even willing to "swipe" pix from the bulletin board for me so that I can have a nice smiling pix of him. Ehehehe.. XD) Anyhoo, I think I did that a couple of times, and then one night, he actually texted back! I was shaking when I read his message. Well... as expected, he was really really polite, even though he didn't know me and I wouldn't tell him. He was very funny and very sweet. And he also said some very serious and responsible stuffs about being a med student and a future physician. I was really impressed... even more impressed... at him. //sheepish// And I.. I WAS NOT SPEECHLESS! I was witty, and funny, and he said I made him laugh. He said he enjoys texting with me. And when we said good night, I had the nerve to ask him to dream of me. And he said he will. HAHAHAHAHA Yah, when I am really in a crazy mood, I am really crazy. LOlz Besides, he wouldn't know. He'd never know. If he'll somehow find out, which is practically impossible cos I made sure to cover all my tracks (LOLz), I will have to kill him. Yes. I will have to kill him. LOlz!! LOlz!! Anyhoo, I remembered that this morning. That time was definitely one of the happiest 2-hours of my life. ^__________^
Anyhoo, now I just remembered that it's getting really late, and I am supposed to be encoding the medical history of my patient. Ehek. I haven't even started it yet. Misaki Principle 208: Pleasure first before business. LOlz Just kidding. Well, last Friday was my last clinics session for this school year, and I was assigned to the Pedia ward. And our patient was this really quiet 2-year old kid who has a markedly distended abdomen. His mother said he has leukemia. And I felt so sad for them. And it was really funny cos we were surrounding the patient, when one of my classmates asked what medications the kid was taking. The mother said she doesn't know and then she started taking out these medicine bottles from the drawer. My classmate looked at the labels and said, "Manang, these are anti-TB drugs..." When we heard that, all of us immediately backed away from the kid! LOLz! Y'know, TB - the national disease of the country. Airborne, infectious disease. Lolz I felt really sad for the kid. In fact, now that I've had 4 personal experiences with patients, I feel very sad for what I am so incapable of doing right now. Because all the patients we examine look up to us as if we have the power to help them in some way, and all we can actually do is perform physical examination on them, and tell them to get well soon. And then. we don't see them ever again. //sigh// I wish we can do more, but at this stage, I guess that's all that we can do. I guess I'm feeling a sort of helplessness.
Anyhoo, must make that report now. I hope I can update my blog again soon, but I think I'll be really crazy the next four weeks. Exams............!!!!! u__U
KAMI-SAMA, TASUKETEEEEeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
Monday, February 16, 2004
Lately I've been really scared and at the same time angry - because of so many reasons. Feh! Is that even possible? I really need to talk to someone... anyone??... demo, I am realizing (again) that I really have no one to depend on. //very very sad// Is it perhaps because I try so much to be strong and responsible? Is it because I try so much to act like I can do everything on my own? I don't know de-su. Feh. I think I wouldn't be able to say what I truly feel anyway. Sheesh.
"I really just wanna be seen, heard and appreciated for who I really am."
"How, Leng? Chikusho. How can they see how you truly feel if you always put on that cheerful face?! How can they hear you if you don't say anything!? And yah, you're right. Everyone's too blind to see your worth."
Friday, February 13, 2004
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! ^_________^
//throws confetti all over// It's the season of L-O-V-E and I wonder if you have got any of those for li'l cute M-E!? LOlz! ^___^ Goodness! I'm making stupid rhymes. ^^;; Probably, the overdose of watching too much of these pre-valentine mush on TV and the sudden increase in the lovers population appearing before me has gotten into my brain... 0__o
Actually, I've been thinking for a while on what would be a nice topic to write about for this special occasion. Hm.. I considered launching into a full discussion on Why It's Good To Be Single or Misaki's Principle No. 101: Mind Over Heart, but then I thought WHAT FOR!? I'd just be spilling my cynicism all over the place and ruining the good mood of lovers everywhere. ^^;; Besides, people might think I'm sourgraping. Hm.. maybe I am. LOlz! LOlz! ^___^
Tsk! Tsk! maybe I got the PVS* too...
(*PVS = Pre-Valentine Syndrome; spasms in your chest because it's the season of love and you realize that nobody really cared enough to //sniffles// "love" you...) //bonks head with a mallet and makes a stupid toothy grin//
My friends actually went out for a group dinner. //sigh// I didn't go with them AGAIN. I don't know de-su. I'm really not into celebrating the season of mush, er, I mean love. X___x I mean, love should be celebrated everyday, ne? (Yah right Misaki. //rolls eyes//) But really, the real reason is: I'm broke AGAIN!!! Although, that's nothing new anymore. LOlz Well, I'd better maximize the time and use it for studying! ^o^
Anyhoo, I just wanna greet anyone I know and love a VERY HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY. I wish love will always fill your hearts to the point of overflowing. May everyone I know and love have peace, joy and contentment in their lives because I wouldn't want anything else but for the people I care for to be completely happy. ^___________^
Minna-san, aishiteruuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!
(especially to my...... HAHAHA!! "Ranma?" ^^;;)
"The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances.
If there is any reaction, both are transformed." (Carl Jung)
I've been following "The Legend of Condor Hero" in AXN, and I must say one thing: I REGRET NOT WATCHING THIS SERIES WHEN CTS SHOWED IT BEFORE!! //sheepish// I actually thought that this was produced by chinese so I wasn't interested. Ehek. ^^;; Well now, I still think it is produced by HK because the logo of Jade animation reminds me of the HK series we used to watch when I was still a kid. Anyhoo, I really love the OP and ED songs!! Especially the OP! I really love the guitar intro! ^o^ And the story is really nice! I grew up watching WuXia movies and series so concepts like the Paralyzing Punch, the Beggar Sect, the fightings between heroes, etc are not new to me anymore. Heck, at the back of my mind, I think I believe that the chinese people of long ago can really fly! LOlz Anyhoo, back to the story - it kinda connects me to my roots. LOlz Now I'm starting to think of reading chinese novels, particularly these WuXia types. I've never tried doing it before, I wonder if I can manage to finish a book. o___O Demo, I'd really love to try! Hope I can find somewhere where i can purchase one!
I've actually seen a live version of this before - Shen Diao Xia Lu (TCS 1998 production). I remember I used to watch it with my mom and cousin, and we would all go goo-goo eyed over Li Ming Shun (Christopher Lee) who played as Yang Guo. And Fan Won Fang (Fann Wong), dressed in a really nice white costume, played as Xiao Long Nu (Dragon Girl). It was such a big hit before. In fact, we love it so much, I asked my uncle in Taiwan to buy me a tape of Fann Wong's first album, which contained the OP and ED songs of the series. (We still didn't have a CD player back then. LOlz) Hey, I think I can still sing the OP...
"Wo xiang xin, ba ni de ming zi, nian shang yi jian bian, chiu hui nian cheng..."
//laughs!// Oh my, I have really bad pinyin! LOlz I'm gonna find that tape later when I get home. Anyway, here are some links to that adaptation:
Return of Condor Heroes
Return of Condor Heroes (another site)
RoCH review
Other adaptations
Actually, I'm putting those links here so that next time I can check them out. LOlz
Anyhoo, now my parents are watching another adaptation of Jin Young's novel: Tian Long Ba Bu Too bad I can't follow the series because I have no time. But it's basically a similar setting as Shen Diao Xia Lu.
Saturday, February 07, 2004
I haven't blogged for a while ne? I've had a vewy busy week, what's with all the exams coming one after the other. GYAaaaaaHHH!!! //pulls hair// At least I can take a breather for a while. I have no classes this Monday. University holiday. ^___^ (DEMO Misaki! Exams on Tuesday and Wednesday!! O__o)
Anyhoo, what was really the highlight of my week was yesterday's practicals in Medicine-1, our so-called "Revalida". It's one of the major exams for us second years, since this will be 1/3 of our final exam grade in Med-1. Besides, it's a test of what we've learned the whole year, and of what skills we have developed.
I was fortunately and unfortunately scheduled for the second batch. Fortunately, because I want to take my revalida early so that I could get it over already. Unfortunately, because we were loaded with exams this week! And by loaded I mean that we have at least one major exam everyday during the week except for Tuesday. So I really didn't have much time to prepare. PLUS! Because I was too tired already, I fell asleep Thursday night, when in fact I was supposed to prepare for the revalida. Ehek. So, with dread in my heart, I faced three of my professors with whatever stock knowledge I have... (do I even have knowledge stocked here!?! //points to head// LOLz!)
For the first prof, who was also in charge for my practicals (meaning, she'll grade my History Taking and Physical Examination), I answered her 3 "side questions" well. Maybe she gave a me a little deduction on the third question, since I was freaked out and shaking that I wasn't able to think straight on the third question and so she had to give me a little hint. Ehek. But anyhoo, maybe she just deducted 1 point. I also gave her a relatively good history. But I was bummed at the PE!! //cries a pailful// She made me do palpation of the abdomen and I was so nervous I forgot to position the patient properly at first (bummer!!). And then I was OK with light palpation but she made me do deep palpation and I couldn't palpate for the liver edge!!! AAaaaHHHh!!! //pulls hair// But I know the principle on how to do it so I explained it to her. And then she said, "What else can you palpate for?" and I said, "Er.. spleen and kidney.. but they are usually not palpable.." Then to my horror, she said, "DO IT. Palpate for the spleen." And then I realized.. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO!!! I racked my brains and I couldn't remember anything... my mind was a complete blank! I tried to palpate the left hypochondriac area and she asked me, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" I cringed and said sheepishly, "Palpating for the spleen?" She looked at me straight and said, "NEXT!" and my other groupmate went over. //sigh// Grabeh ka-minus. I felt like a dufus. o___O
When the last of my groupmates was tasked to perform a cerebellar function test on the patient and she didn't do it well, my prof turned to me (cos I was nearest to the patient's bed) and said, "You do it!" And in my mind I was squealing in glee because I know how to do it! It was a chance to redeem myself!! So I told her confidently, "I'm going to do Finger-to-Nose Test." And so first, with the patient's eyes open, I let her touch her nose alternately with her left and right fingers. Then I let her do the same maneuver with her eyes closed. And then THIS was the joke of yesterday's revalida. I told the patient to do the same maneuver, with her eyes open, but this time touching MY NOSE! And I think for a moment I noticed my prof almost breaking into a laugh as the patient DRUMMED MY NOSE ALTERNATELY WITH HER FINGERS!! Which classmate was it who told me that the patient was supposed to touch the examiner's nose?! GYAAAaaaaaaHHH!!!! The patient was just supposed to touch her nose and then touch the examiner's FINGER! NOT NOSE! Aw goodness, I must have looked really stupid with the patient's fingers drumming on my nose. How totally embarrassing! ^^;;
Anyhoo, next I went to this other doctor and I was supposed to answer 15-points worth of question/s from her. And I was very nervous, because this doctor was the one who lectured on the chest and lungs, and I WASN'T ABLE TO FINISH STUDYING ABOUT AUSTIN FLINT MURMURS AND PULSUS ALTERNANS WHATEVER! So when I approached her to draw my question, I almost jumped in glee because the first question was way way waaaaaaaaaaaay too easy!!! ^_______^ But for the follow-up question, I totally blanked out again! And so I just stood there quiet, racking my brains. o__O After quite a long moment of silence, she asked me for my answer and I told her I blanked out. She gave me some hints and I tried to guess and make some sense of the blood flow that I was talking about. I got confused and I think I made her a little confused too. Ehek ^^;;; And then she said, "OK, let's start again. I'll give you a hint and you explain from there." And so to the best of my abilities, I tried to imagine the blood flow in a defective heart and I somehow... managed to get it right! SUGGEEEEEeeeee... Misaki! LOLz My prof said, "Oh! So given a few hints, you do know how to explain it! OK, I'll give you 14 points." WAAaaaaaaiiiiii!!! SOooooo ureshiiii!!!! ^____^
For the last doctor, I was also really worried because he was a specialist in the Head and Neck (EENT) and to be honest, I only learned to turn on an otoscope just two days ago! o__O I've never done PE on the eyes, ears and nose, because I do not have an otoscope. I just know how to do it by principle but it's never the same as when you actually do it yourself. Anyhoo, he was just supposed to ask 15-points worth questions, BUT HE MADE US DO PE ON THE HEAD AND NECK! My goodness. He made me do pneumatic otoscopy, fundoscopy and palpation of cervical lymph nodes (the third one is relatively easy). I've never done fundoscopy before so I awkwardly held the ophthalmoscope and tried to focus on the patient's dilated pupils. He asked me what I saw, I mumbled, "Blood vessels, optic disc... er, and OTHERS..." ACK! How baka could I possibly get!? o___O For the pneumatic otoscopy, I just saw lots of cerumen. But my classmates said that we should describe the eardrum, etc so I told him that I also saw the tympanic membrane, it was grayish pearl, it was intact and mobile blah blah. He asked if there was any perforations and I answered none. He said, with his usual smiling face, "OKeeeee..." We later learned that of the 12 who took the exam, everyone gave the same answer about the eardrum except for 1 classmate who said that she couldn't see it. And you know what, SHE WAS RIGHT! Because there was something not normal about the patient's ear and so it was difficult to see her eardrum! Ehek.. ^^;; Does that mean we were all bluffing? //sweatdrops// But some of my classmates admitted that they really saw the eardrum. Well, I just saw lots of cerumen. ^^;; I'd be lucky if he gave me 5 points for my awkward PE on the head and neck. Maybe 5 points for effort? ^^;;;
Anyhoo, at least I'm through with that and so it feels good to have a thorn off my chest. I don't have to worry about much about Medicine-1 till the major exams. I think that even if I was not perfect during my revalida, I think that I did pretty OK. And well, (correct) practice always makes perfect. The skills can only come from what I understand and from what I have repeatedly experienced.
FINALLY!!! ^________^
I was finally able to watch the Jap movie MOONCHILD, with the ultimate bishie cast of HAIDO, GACKTO and LEE HOM. //claps in glee// Yukichan (Haido no Tsuma) has been telling me about it since last year even though she still hasn't seen it yet, and Syivee - who has seen it - also emailed me about how cool the movie was. So I was also excited to watch it. And oh, what joy! when I learned last month that WOWOW will air the movie on February 1! ^___^ And so last sunday, I watched.
And I cried. //sheepish// LOLz
It's actually weird to cry over something that I couldn't completely understand. The movie didn't have any english subs at all and my japanese vocabulary is too limited. Ehek. ^^; But good thing that they would converse in mandarin in many of their scenes, and so I could pick up much of the storyline. And from what I understood of it, it was a VERY tragic story.
STORY
It was a time of violence, in the distant future, in a place called Mallepa. Three kids had just robbed loads of money from this big boss guy, and one of them, Sho (young Gackto) had run off to a this run-down place where he finds a pale and sick-looking Kei (Haido) crouched in the ruins. Kei tells the little boy to go away, but Sho couldn't keep his eyes off Kei and noticed that his hand was smoldering under the sun. Sho puts him in a wagon and wheels him to their hide-out.
In their lair, Sho's brother and their friend Toshi were gawking over the money they have stolen, when suddenly the big boss guy finds them and he shoots Sho's brother on the leg. He tells Sho to run after Toshi and just when Sho was running off, he heard a loud cry and went back to see that his wounded brother has struggled out of the place and was telling Sho not to go back in because there was a "bakemono" (monster). But Sho, thinking about Kei, hurries back and saw something unexpected - Kei was FEEDING on the now-lifeless big boss guy. Kei was a vampire. He looks up to ask if Sho felt that it was "kowai" (scary). The little boy shook his head.
Next scene - 15 years later. Sho has become a grown-up Gackto who acts a little dumb and immature (so cute!! ^__^). He has now acquired some extraordinary fighting skills and has teamed up with a never-aging Kei and their pizza-delivering friend Toshi to do some serious crimes. Once, when they were trying to steal this gambling place, they crossed paths with LeeHom (I forgot what his character's name was), who was also out in that place for revenge. Anyhoo, to make long story short, they became very good friends with LeeHom and his younger sister (who has repressed memories and refuses to speak). Everyone was happy, and Gackto was falling for the girl (I think Haido likes her too.) The group goes to the beach at one "romantic-ku" night and to take a group pic, a memento of their friendship.
Then one day, when the group planned to meet up for a celebration, Toshi was kidnapped and dragged by two punks (whom they probably crossed paths with before, I don't know de-su) and they killed him in front of Gackto, LeeHom and his sister - who were all unarmed. Enter a very frail Haido, who hasn't had a blood meal for some time and was very weak. He runs after the punks (or was it the punks running after him?) and he kills them both and feeds on them. LeeHom and his sister watches in shock and disgust, and Gackto tells him to stop because Toshi is dead. Haido continues to feed. (Poor guy, he must've been really hungry. LOlz)
Years have passed. The gang has broken up. Haido was captured by the police for his massive killings (er, feedings? ^^;;) and was being investigated since his genes are "mutated". LeeHom has followed another chinese ganglord. And Gackto is now some big-time ganglord himself and has married LeeHom's sister. Gackto and LeeHom are now enemies since LeeHom's new boss is not pleased with the successful progress of the Japanese gangsters in the area (Mallepa is like futuristic Taiwan, I think, so it was basically populated with chinese people). I also think LeeHom is angry at Gackto because he married his sister, because he once said jokingly(?) that if Gackto falls for his sister, he will kill him. Anyhoo, LeeHom's gang kills all of Gackto's subordinates and even Gackto's brother. In a scene in the morgue, where LeeHom hands the corpse of Gackto's brother to him and the two just heated up, LeeHom's sister finally opened her mouth to speak. She cries in frustration and asks what has happened to their group and why can't they get along anymore. "Can't we be happy like the way we used to be?"
Because of the stress(?) of speaking, LeeHom's sister fell ill and her sense of orientation became all jumbled up (she calls Gackto as Kei and calls LeeHom as her father). She was doomed to die. LeeHom and Gackto conversed seriously in the rooftop and talked about their lives. LeeHom tells him that it was inevitable that their paths will cross again as enemies, and when that time came, only one man shall stand to live.
Gackto, now left with nothing (well actually, he still has a young daughter), calls Haido in the prison for help. Haido says nothing but the Inspector guy tells Gackto that Haido will be taken away (to I don't know where) the next day. When Haido was being transported in the armored police van, he fights off the cops and rans away under the heat of the sun wrapped in a blanket. He hurries back to meet Gackto.
They infiltrate this broken down place, which was where Gackto found Haido the first time, and kills everyone who stood in their way. When they were confronted by LeeHom, Gackto shoots out the skylights and sunlight streamed in so that Haido couldn't get through. Gackto tells Haido that this is his fight (or at least that's how I understood it). Gackto and LeeHom had a mano y mano (er, man to man, right?) shooting spree in another part of the building. At their last bullets, LeeHom shoots Gackto and he falls bleeding to the ground. Haido has managed to get pass the sunlight area by using some guys' bodies as shield and when he sees what LeeHom had done, he kills him. Then Haido holds the dying Gackto in his arms and cries.
Gackto's daughter has grown up and has followed the footsteps of her mother as a painter. Haido meets with her one night to congratulate her for her success and she smiles happily at him and I think thanked him as well (I didn't understand much of what they said ^^;;). Then as they walked their separate ways, we see that Haido was not alone, but that Gackto (yes, very much alive) was also with him. Gackto was watching his daughter's success from afar (//sniffles// very touching). He has become a vampire as well - perhaps it was the only way that Haido can prevent him from dying. Haido and Gackto talked as they got into their convertible, and I think they were having a serious and sad conversation maybe about their lives or past or what. Then they reached this grassy place overlooking the waters, and they just sat there in their car with the car top down waiting for the sunrise. The two have decided to end their lives, and as sun's rays starts to bask the day anew, the two of them are gone - on to the afterlife.
EPILOGUE. The sun was high up, the day was bright and the waters were blue and calm. Haido, Gackto, LeeHom, his sister and Toshi pose in front of the camera with big smiles. The group has once again reunited, just like before.
WATASHI NO KIMOCHI
My Jap friend told me that this movie didn't click at all in Japan, and from some reviews that I've read, I don't think people liked it that much. Maybe the story was too farfetched, maybe the acting was too lame, maybe the fighting scenes were so out-of-this-world and maybe it really is a cheesy, pointless film. But I like it anyway!
I like it, even though I didn't understand much of their conversation. I like it, not because of the bishies - because face it, I only like Haido and Gackto because Yukichan likes them. LOLz! I like it, despite the crazy plot and the aw goodness, the YAOI scenes! NYAHAHAHAHA I like it, definitely not because of the violence and the dark side of it (Ehek.. ^^;;). I just like it. Does one need to have a reason to like something? ^o^
Well I just think that if the bond between the characters are enough to move me to my tears, then it is something to be liked. ^__^ I guess what struck me there was their friendship. I think that they have allowed lots of complicated aspects to affect their relationship and so they have lost what was important. I think that there are really some things in life that are better kept simple. But it was nice that in the end, they have somehow reunited just like before. I think it is important to pursue and cherish what makes you happy. I think I am not making any sense. I think it's because I made such a long entry and still haven't had my lunch. o___O
Well, I end this vewy long entry with Haido's words from the movie. The first time they took their group pic that night at the beach, Haido was standing beside LeeHom's mute sister. And as they looked at the camera, Haido softly whispers to her, "Gao xing de shi hou, hai shi xiao yi xiao bi jiao hao..."
"When you feel happy, then it would be better if you smile..."
