Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Good news first: Earlier I went to school to inquire about my status as a scholar. I felt really nervous cos my future really depends on this. And I learned... that I still get to keep my scholarship!! Weeeee!! I get to keep all of it so that means I can still go to school on May! Yey!! I really thank and praise God for blessing me with so much even though I know that I truly don't deserve it. I feel very positive now that perhaps I am really on the right path and that this is what God wants me to do. Thank you, Lord. ^_________^
Um.. OK. Now for today's blog entry...
//VERY CRAZY FAN GIRL MODE ON//
The past week, my mom and I have been staying up till the wee hours of the morning watching this K-drama called GLASS SHOES. It was recommended to me by my S'porean penpal, and it's 50 episodes long. It's a typical story of a poor girl who experiences all the possible worse happenings in life, but still manages to remain genki and lovable. And that main girl is played by Kim Hyun-joo, who also plays opposite Vanness Wu in Star Runner (Thanks to Joey for pointing that out, or else my mom and I would never even have noticed it! ^^). Well, I expected it to be sad and angsty since it's a K-drama after all, but I didn't expect me and my mom to be crying so much in the first three episodes, as well as during the part of Taehee and Yunhee's reunion! I find it funny now - my mom and I sniveling like crazy at 4 o'clock in the morning.. wehehe ^^ The story is really frustrating and addictive - it kept us on the edge of our seats and kept us wondering what will happen next. At the same time, it was also so sweet and so sad. I really don't know how to share how I feel, because I think one really has to watch the series to truly appreciate it. Dang, I really want to share it to my friends but since it is subtitled in chinese, I cannot and don't have the time to verbally translate 50 episodes! //sigh// I guess it's again one of those really good things that I can only keep to myself...
Anyway, did I mention that one character in Glass Shoes is an absolute bishie? //Warning: Bishie Ranting Ahead!!// YESSSss!!! His name is Han Jae-suk and he plays Jang Jae-Hyuk, the (un/lucky) guy who gets linked with both sisters. I don't know, but he has this look that is really kakkoi! ^^ And he's extra bishie-ous when he has that newly-washed-face look! WEeee!!! Me and my mom thinks he's really good looking! And then yesterday, as I was watching some Jang Dong-gun clips, I learned that Han Jae-suk is also part of the series ALL ABOUT EVE! So now I'm really seriously considering if I should buy that series too... He looks very very kakkoi in it... //sigh// But I don't know desu. Because I still have many other stuffs to buy, which is what I am going to talk about next.
Besides watching Glass Shoes, I have also been watching another K-drama, BEAUTIFUL DAYS, with actors Lee Byung-hun and Choi Ji-woo. Actually, this was already shown in CTS last year but I didn't have the time to watch it then. And I thought my mom was really weird back then because she was so hooked to it when in fact, Lee Byung-hun wasn't even a bishie! At least that was what I thought back then. Now I will go down on my knees, beg for forgiveness and take back all of what I thought back then, because now I am absolutely, totally, completely CRAZY about Lee Byung-hun!! ^^ He's all I ever think about... LOLz! No, seriously, his role as Lee Min-chul is really so captivating. He acts so cold and shows no emotions, but when he fell in love with Kim Yeon-soo (Choi Ji-woo), it's like.. totally chokilig. That's the only description I can give it. Chokilig! LOLz I have been smiling like crazy the past few days every time I think about all the Lee Byung-hun x Choi Ji-woo scenes, and I can actually feel my heart go doki-doki with joy the whole day! ^^ I must be crazy noh for feeling this way over a TV dorama? Lolz In fact, I'm so light-headed now that I'm going to do something "crazy"... But I won't say it now because it would be too embarrasing... hehehe
Last night, P-chan spent the night at my house and I showed her some chokilig scenes of B.D., and even though P-chan don't know the story at all, but she was so chokilig that she even said something like "maybe it would be nice to fall in love with someone like that..". Nyahahaha ^^ I've been thinking now that maybe, one of these days, I need to fall in love too. If falling in love is like how Lee Byung-hun treats Choi Ji-woo in B.D., then it is definitely worth my everything! LOLz! LOLz! I feel really warm all over when I watch B.D., and when Lee Byung-hun does something so sweet and unexpected, my heart skips with absolute bliss and I really feel my insides flip-flop.. Dang, how can a guy be so totally charming when he smiles? How can there exist such a guy with so much expression in his eyes? //sigh// I still have 8 more episodes of B.D. to watch, and I'm really very seriously considering buying my own copy of it (cos the one I'm watching belongs to my Be-i). And I'm also planning to buy Lee Byung-hun's other series, ALL IN. I actually have All In in VHS already but I still want to own a VCD copy of it, particularly one with with english subs so that I can share it with my friends. I also made contact with a friend so maybe next month I can get Lee Byung-hun movies!!! JOINT SECURITY AREA and BUNGEE JUMPING ON THEIR OWN! Weeeeee!! Ureshii..! So.. //gets calculator// does that mean I won't get any allowance until next year? Ehek... ^^;; Seriously, I don't know how I'm going to pay for it, but I really want to buy... I really want to see more of Lee Byung-hun... Waaahh!!! I really really like Lee Byung-hun....!!! //sigh// Me and my obsessive-compulsive personality disorder, hehehe ^o^
Anyway.. I can rant on and on about Lee Byung-hun but I guess I'll just save that for my journal... //thinks of the already many many pages of Lee Byung-hun rantings in her journal.. LOLz!!// Yesterday, I had P-chan over for the night because our jpop CDs from Yukichan has finally arrived. We were both so overwhelmed with joy!! Every Little Thing... Do As Infinity... BoA... Ayumi Hamasaki... Chemistry... Utada Hikaru... SMAP... Onitsuka Chihiro... and so so much more! ^_____^ Yukichan even sent me Laruku's SMILE and Gackto's earlier performance during his Malice Mizer days. P-chan and I are so extra-happy (never mind that we are both extra-broke as well.. hehehe ^o^) I enjoyed having P-chan over for the night because P-chan always appreciates the things that I like, even though sometimes she doesn't know or understands them. ^^ And P-chan has agreed to listen to Gackto's LAST SONG and teach me to pluck the intro. Well, since I don't have much free time left anymore so I think I'll just practice the intro. LOlz
Oh yah.. there's a slight problem at home by the way. I don't know if it's because we've been watching too much K-dramas or because my sis and I have been playing FF9, but I guess our TV got overworked and um, the other night, it got busted. Yep! Yep! The TV completely died. No picture. No sound. No nothing. It's frustrating, really. Cos just a few days ago, we got back our CTS channel and I was planning to follow some newer K-dramas that they are featuring. //sigh// And I still have to finish B.D. and some other VCDs from my collection. Plus I'm going to get SUMMER SCENT next month already. Tsk. What bad timing ne? We're still undecided if we should have the TV fixed or if we should buy a new one; and if we'll buy a new one, are we going to buy a cheaper model or something else. Whatever decision we make, it'll still probably take some time cos a new TV is definitely not in the budget, not when I'm going back to school already next month and my textbooks cost something to the tune of 20+ thousand (but I'm not going to buy all of those! x___X). Right now, our only alternative is this very small portable black and white TV we have. Ehek.. ^^;; But I don't mind using it at all. If it means that I can continue to watch my Lee Byung-hun, then I really don't mind at all. Except that, well, I can't know what color of suit Lee Byung-hun is wearing since the picture is all in different shades of gray. LOlz //sigh// Daijoubu da yo! Everything will be fine desu!! ^____^
Yesssss.... the past few days have really been "beautiful days" for me... ^o^ I feel so "in love''... I feel so happy... Hahaha
"Love is like sea water. The first drink makes you feel so refreshed, but afterwards, you will then feel even more thirsty. You drink more of it, but still the thirst does not disappear. Love is like sea water. The more you drink of it, the more you thirst."
- Lee Min-chul (played by Lee Byung-hun), Beautiful Days
Lee Byung-hun, sarang he... LOLz! LOlz!
//VERY CRAZY FAN GIRL MODE OFF//
Monday, April 19, 2004
The other night, the Disney channel featured The Sound of Music, and I watched it cos I didn't have anything else to do. I felt amused cos I could still sing almost every line of all the songs. ^___^ I guess it must've been one of my favorite movies when I was still a kid. But watching it the other night felt a little different from before because I guess I'm now watching it from a more, er, "mature" POV. LOLz And I was very excited and interested, particularly at the "love angle". LOLz! Grabeh, Captain Von Trapp (Christopher Plummer) is such a bishie! He has a look that makes you wanna melt, and he talks so kakkoi-ly. LOlz! And then the dance. When they did that Austrian folk dance thing, I almost fell off the rocking chair. ChoooooKAKKOI!! LOLz! And another favorite scene is the part when the flabbergasted captain confesses his love to a confused Maria in the garden. Ehehehe... ChoKilig. Nyahahaha
Also last night, I watched and taped the Do As Infinity Live and Talk Special: Gates of Heaven feature in WOWOW. I was quite disappointed because it was only an hour and a half long, and since it was a Live and Talk special, the artists kept popping out to make comments. Ahhhh... Very bad desu! I wished it was just a "plain" concert that I can just watch and enjoy. But anyhoo, it was still great. I love DAI music after all. But what really surprised me was that.... Tomiko Van gained weight! YES! Her face, which used to be heart-shaped, is now very.. round. 0___o ChoSurprised desu. I used to tell my sister that I need to lose weight so that I will look like Tomiko Van, but apparently it's the other way around... Tomiko Van gained some weight so that she could look like me... ^o^ Feh! It is so difficult to be THIS cute. Even popular Jpop artists want to copy my face. //giggles//
Speaking of DAI, I finally sent Yukichan our CD orders. Pchan and I pooled our money and asked (begged?) Yukichan to please burn us some DAI, ELT, Hikki, SMAP, Ayu and other jpop albums. I would've love to order animes too but no more money desu! >.< Besides, Yukichan said most of her animes are now in divx format, and I can't watch that cos I still don't have a PC. Dang! Save for PC first, buy anime later. ^___^
Anyway.. GACKT Rant!! It might be a little redundant, but yes, I'm still hooked to Gackto's Crescent album. Wehehe My most favorite track is Last Song. As soon as I heard the guitar plucking intro, I fell in love with the song right away. Yah, never mind that I still don't understand it. Ah wait... //reads translations// Ah OK. It IS a sad love song (for me) and so now I love it even more. Hehehe Here is a very touchy-feely line:
anata no kokoro no naka ni zutto saiteitai kara
(Even if I disappear along with this white snow
I want to always bloom in your heart)
Yessss.. I really love that song! ^___^ It makes me wanna get my guitar and attempt at plucking. Dang! I should really learn to pluck already. LOlz Anyhoo, I also love Orenji no Taiyou (Orange Sun)!! When I lay on the bed and listen to the soothing voices of Gackto and Haido (yes! Haido! ^__^), I feel like being serenaded to my sleep. Wehehehe Then flashes of Moonchild memories come back to me, since it is, after all, the theme song of Moonchild. Yes. It kinda makes me feel sad and happy at the same time, and it makes a perfect close for the album.
And THIS is a perfect close for today's blog entry.
The flowers are, of course, for me... ^______^
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
This morning I met up with a guy. Ehek. ^^;; LOlz! A friend in Davao sent me a CD thru this guy and we've been making plans to meet but for some reasons, we kept rescheduling again and again for the past two weeks and it was becoming quite annoying. Anyway, so I met him earlier... um... well, in fairness, he was OK-looking. Not really my type though. LOLz LOLz He just gave me the CD, said a few words, and left. Hm.. He prolly got scared at how I looked.. :p
Anyhoo... on to the main topic... I got back from my Camiguin trip last Sunday and I must say that I really had lots of fun desu! We went to Sto. Nino Cold Springs, Ardent Hot Springs, Katibawasan Falls, Mantigue Island, beaches, etc. As I said before, I planned to bask myself in the sun till I burn and peel, and that's exactly what I did! (and exactly what you'd expect from someone who hasn't swam in a beach for four(?) years! LOLz). Not that I know how to swim.. ^^;; Most of the time I was in the kiddie pool, hehehe But I pretended that I was watching over my little cousins... hehehe A most memorable experience was my sister (who also couldn't swim ^^;;) almost drowning. I guess she underestimated the height of the adult pool in the cold springs, cos she jumped straight into the 6-ft deep part! She was in absolute panic and yelling at me to save her, and she said I just stared at her BLANKLY. LOLz It was quite embarrassing for her cos a lot of people were watching but nobody came to her rescue. ^^;;; But my sis eventually managed to reach the side of the pool so she was OK. hehehe Anyhoo, I was looking forward the most to bathing at the hot springs but I was quite disapppointed because it was not as hot as I expected. I thought there would be smoke (err... water vapor? ^^;;) coming out from it - just like in Love Hina - but there was none. Prolly cos there were too many people the time we went and prolly cos, yes, I was at the kiddie pool. LOLz ^^;; But I was able to conclude that perhaps the REAL onsens are in Japan and so I should really try my best so that I can go there in the future to bathe. ^______^ But all in all, I enjoyed my Camiguin adventure very much. ^______^
So now I'm staying at home attending to my four naughty cousins who will be staying with us till tomorrow. They are really a bunch of hyperactive kids and they have this tendency to break things, so I have to watch them very carefully. I'm going back to the hospital next week to continue my volunteer duties, and I hope my skin color lightens up a bit by then. I think I really look funny with this uneven complexion... ^^;;;
Lately, I've been hooked to Gackto's Crescent album. I really love his deep and manly voice... ^o^ And also, I'm really loving the new L'Arc~en~ciel tracks - Ready Steady Go and Hitomi no Juuin. Yukichan said she'll send me a copy of L'aruku's new album, SMILE, and so I can't wait for that! She told me that I really HAVE TO listen to it. Tee-hee. She's really one big L'aruku fan.. LOLz She has been converting for me new L'aruku clips she downloaded from the net, and I thought that's really sweet of her. Hehehe Haido's really cute now... Ehehehe.. *winks*
Thursday, April 01, 2004
I've started volunteering at the Community Health Care Center, which is basically the German-funded charity hospital on the 1st and 2nd floors of our college building. I'm assigned to assist an OB-Gynecologist and today is my second day. I didn't have any particular feelings whatsoever at first, except perhaps that I feel a little lazy since it's summer but I still have to wake up early for this. Anyhoo, as expected, I was tasked to write prescriptions and observe the procedures. But, I don't know. Maybe it slipped my mind that I was in an OB-GYN clinic, cos when the doctor started examining the uh, female anatomy, well, I guess I just wasn't prepared for that... ^^;;;
I was a little surprised actually. I mean, it prolly doesn't show on my face, since I always have such a passive, dumb-ish look all the time. And I know that by choosing this profession, we have to be really scientific and all... but I was quite taken aback. And I even asked hesitantly, "Doc, is it OK if I watch you do the examination?" and she replied, "Yes, of course!" Ehek. But it was really interesting though. A little freaky when the doctor inserted the speculum, but when she opened the speculum already and I got to see the cervix, I felt "enlightened". LOlz And then the doctor told me this morning that I should read about Bimanual Examination because she's going to let me do it. And I was like, "Whoa! ME?! BME?! You mean I will (ack!) palpate the cervix with my fingers?!" So I was a little tense and I was telling myself over and over that this is a very good opportunity to learn so I should not be afraid. And I kept repeating Sayama Shoko's "If you're not brave, then nothing can begin" as if it was going to save me from such an uncomfortable fate. But anyhoo, to put an end to the story, I didn't get to do it. Nobody came for cervical examination this afternoon. =sigh= I felt relieved at the same time sad at the loss of an opportunity. I may get to do it tomorrow though. But then again, maybe not.
Moving on to another topic, tonight Maalaala Mo Kaya will be featuring "The Mark Bautista Story" and we will be watching it for the simple reasons that #1. Mark Bautista is from my city, and #2. He happens to be a classmate and friend from high school. Grabeh, sometimes we still can't believe that he has now become a TV star and is fulfilling his dreams. I feel amused sometimes when I see him guesting and singing on shows, or playing his "Quiapo! Quiapo!" role in Sarah. LOlz And now this. His own life story on TV and he gets to act it out too. But I guess it's a little expected cos he has the talent and the looks. I hope he makes it big. He deserves it man pud. ^o^
(Hm... I wonder if we will be mentioned in the story? Ha.Ha.Ha. I doubt it!)
Currently loving Gackto’s "Kimi noTameni Dekiru Koto". It’s prolly one of his older singles, but I really really love it! And I think I’m starting to like Gackto too. I like his voice – it’s so powerful and manly. I like his eyes – they look sad. And he’s really quite charming, as I like to describe him. He’s quite funny in some of the clips Yukichan gave me and so I really like to watch those clips (as well as his PVs) over and over.
Ahhh... weather today is the same as the weather since the start of the summer break -- IT'S SO DARN HOT!!! I always have the electric fan in front of my face cos if I just lose contact of it for even just a few minutes, I start to sweat. Agh! Anyhoo, next week we will be going to Camiguin! Wehooo!! It will be a nice summer place to visit since it is filled with beaches, hot springs, and fun! fun! fun! Even though it's quite near my city, but I've never been there yet. I plan to really bask myself under the sun and burn my skin till it peels. LoLz Lolz
