REASONING WITH THE UNREASONABLE

Today I was part of a medical mission to Kinoguitan. We went there to screen for possible cataract patients. We saw quite a number of patients, and diagnosed about 25 of them with cataract for possible surgery within next month. Most of the other patients had errors of refraction and so we advised them for correction with glasses. We also saw several patients with pterygium and advised them for surgery as well. The screening lasted the whole morning in a very humid classroom. Some of the patients were irritating and some were uncooperative (and some, uh, stink! 0__o), it really just stretches your patience to its limits! I really didn’t want to join the mission at first when Doc Dejos announced it, but I had no choice because the post-duty clerk for today (that’s me) should be the one to go. Thank God that Bandoy also volunteered to join so at least I don’t feel so by myself. But I feel good now because it was a nice experience. I got to interact with people, diagnose and explain their condition to them, and improve my skills with the ophthalmoscope. I told Bandoy that someday, when we get to become REAL doctors, we should take active parts in medical outreaches like this.

I went to buy DVDs today! It has been more than a week(?) since I last went there, and so I was astonished to see so many new DVDs. Lots of Korean series in boxes as well movies – old and new – made me so excited as well as so depressed. Excited because I have such a passion for these DVDs; Depressed because I know I can’t buy ALL of them. I hate it whenever I feel this way, but I can’t help feeling this way. I hate the fact that I am a poor medical student with not enough time to watch and not enough money to buy ALL the movies and series in the world. [sad] It would be nice though if I could just simply learn to accept that I just can’t do anything about this situation. But being the sick-o that I am, what’s with this obsessive-compulsive personality that seems to manipulate every facet of my life, I just can’t control how I think and feel about many things – especially when it comes to DVDs and CDs. Yes. I have such an unreasonable craze for them.

Anyway, I bought 3 DVDs today: Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children, Friends and Be With You. Actually, FF7:AC was the main reason I was there, because I heard from Gervie that it’s already available. It’s definitely a MUST HAVE copy, never mind that I don’t play the game (I only played FF9). When I first tried the DVD at the stall, the graphics were just so excellent that it basically leaves you breathless. The character designs were so detailed; the background visuals seem so real. I had no hesitation at all to buy a copy for myself. I bought FRIENDS (Fukada Kyoko, Wonbin), not because I don’t have it yet in VCD, but because I just want to have it in DVD [SEE just how totally IRRATIONAL I can be?! XD XD]. Besides, it was the only copy in the place and I was afraid I might regret later on if I don’t buy it now. And then I bought the Japanese movie BE WITH YOU because it was a Takeuchi Yuko (Pride, Mukodono) movie and I just love her as an actress! I’m actually quite cautious when buying Japanese movies because I’m afraid that I might accidentally buy porn stuff. [sheepish] LOL After all, these Japanese movies usually come with really nice DVD covers so it’s easy to be deceived into thinking that it’s a sappy love story when it’s in fact, HENTAI!!! LOLz! But I don’t think Be With You is a cheap porn flick, judging from the facts that (1) Takeuchi Yuko and (2) a little boy are part of the cast. I think it’s a nice love story that will make me shed tears of joy and contentment, and I really feel I need a good crying right now. It’s nice to vent out your emotions once in a while. ^_________^

There’s still so many DVDs that I NEED to buy AS SOON AS POSSIBLE! Sword fighting flicks, romantic comedies, action movies, tragic TV dramas, anime box sets… the list would just go on forever and ever and ever… ARRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!! [pulls hair in frustration!!!] I didn’t make a list anymore, because it would only intensify my exasperation. But anyway, I guess I just have to be patient and TRY to be a bit more rational, and buy the DVDs ONE by ONE, until I complete all the DVDs that I want – which, unfortunately, will never happen. Because I’m just plain obsessive-compulsive, and no amount of DVDs will ever satisfy my hungry need for more.

Crazy! XD XD XD

THE SMILE THAT HAS LEFT YOUR EYES

Finally finished Sora Kara Furu Ichioku no Hoshi (One Billion Stars Falling From The Sky). I'm not really in the mood right now to write a review. Besides, as I mentioned here before, I want to lump all the Kimura Takuya series into one entry only. But I feel very shocked right now. I want to cry. I want to get angry. I want to laugh. I love and hate the story at the same time. I love and hate this series for making me this confused. I love and hate Kimura Takuya for looking so so so so so so so so good and for being so so so so so so so so extraordinarily amazing. I love and hate myself for feeling this way.

Got a copy of the Full Metal Panic! already, although, only time will tell when I'll watch that series.

WALKING BEHIND YOU

We were excused from our hospital duties today because we had to attend the opening ceremonies for Med Days. It has always been tradition to start the celebration with a mass and a motorcade, but I didn’t join both because I woke up late [sheepish ^.^] . I immediately proceeded to the canteen for the brunch (which was one of the best highlights of the day, hehehe). As I sat down to take my meal, I saw a back view of someone familiar, But since I wasn’t wearing my glasses and my vision was blurry, I thought, “Nah… it’s impossible!” So I just and ate my food and chatted with my friends, who were just as happy as I was to be away from the hospital for even one morning. I went with Bandoy for a while to the Covered Courts to cheer for the College of Medicine teams playing badminton and volleyball for the intramurals, but I guess it is to be expected that we would lose most of the games, since our teams don’t really have that much time to practice. I went back again to the canteen because Hya was late and wanted me to accompany her to take her meal. Then we went to the Little Theatre together for the opening program.

As we took our seats, I thought I saw that familiar person’s back again. I supposed that it was possible for him to be there, but I just didn’t want to get my hopes all up. Anyway, the program had already started – speech from our Dean, speech from Dr. Beltran, then the awarding of certificates of honor to the new batch of doctors who passed the medicine licensure exams last February and August. I saw several familiar faces – one was Mommy JJ, who was my PGI (post graduate intern) in OB-GYNE Department last April. She was one of the nice persons who taught me how to insert an IV cannula and a urinary catheter. ^.^ I feel happy that she has made it, and also delighted that she’s pregnant with her second child. I wanted to congratulate her, but I had a sudden attack of shyness seeing her with all her classmates. Anyway, as each of their names were called out, and as each of them stood up on stage (very respectably – looking very much like a doctor – in their formal wear), I looked hopefully that someday I would also get my turn. Then Doc Peralta called out the last name, and I was just stupefied. It was MY SEMPAI after all. (Yehey! ^________^) I never really expected him to come because he’s not from this city, but he came! He wore a casual shirt and khaki pants, and he actually gained some weight and some flab (hee-hee ^.^), BUT HE WAS STILL LOOKING SO CUTE AS EVER!! [beams with joy] Hya was elbowing me and telling me to look intently at him, for this might be my last chance of seeing him. As if I needed any more reminding as I was practically gawking at him and grinning happily from ear to ear! LOLz The program continued on with a speech from one of the new doctors, a speech from one of the parents, presentations from the freshmen, sophomores and juniors (none from us seniors because we weren’t informed), and ended with closing remarks from the PTA president.

Outside the Little Theatre, all of us senior clerks were bustling with happiness trying to catch up with the gossips from our friends. I was talking with Deziree, Hya, Bandoy and Shay-Shay when I caught a (really nice) view of MY SEMPAI conversing with his friends. He was only about 1 meter away from me, and as much as I wanted to grab him and hug him in my excitement, all I could only do was steal quick glances at him. And I SWEAR, I thought I saw him look several times in our direction. I have a bad feeling he probably knows about how I feel. Mommy JJ and Hanni both know about this, and they could’ve told him because they are friends, but I doubt they’d do something like that because it would just be too embarrassing for me! But then, also from the way my friends were elbowing me, pushing me in his direction, and Deziree saying loudly that I should just say congratulations or I might never get another chance, anyone would easily suspect that there’s something fishy going on. Actually, I really did want to talk to him, to tell him that I’m happy for him and his classmates, but I was too nervous to even think, much more construct words and utter them out of my mouth. We weren’t exactly friends in school, but we knew each other and talked several times before. He often smiled at me. But then he’s so friendly to other students and so popular among all the girls that I really don’t think of myself as more special than any of them. However, there is actually a very funny and sweet story behind our first encounter, and it is a memory that I will always treasure, and probably something he too will never forget. But that is a tale that I will just keep to myself for now [smiles with amusement]. Well, going back to my story, as he and his friends started to leave, Hya quickly seized my arm and said that it was time for us to go too. Their group unhurriedly walked in front of us, and Hya and I just enjoyed a really pleasant back view of him. I was once again reminiscent of the days when I used to follow him around like a stalker, hehehe Halfway to the gate, their group suddenly stopped and I was nearly THIS CLOSE to him, but in my agitation, I pulled Hya’s arm to the opposite direction and we walked AHEAD of them VERY SLOWLY. I could almost feel him behind me. Once again, I wondered if he knows or if he even noticed that I exist. Hya and I exited the school gate and when I turned my head to look back, I didn’t see him anymore. Hya was right. It was probably the very last time that I will see him. I could’ve said something to him, ANYTHING, yet I was just absurdly staring at his back, and letting the opportunity slip from my hands. As I went home, I felt a sense of regret and overwhelming sadness, but oddly, this was combined with a childlike giddiness and unfathomable bliss, and these positive emotions overpowered the negative sentiments. Foolish as I am, I guess I’m already contented with the fact that I saw him, and that I could walk behind him. After all, I’m a simple person who takes simple pleasures in life, and I am just plain grateful to God that I was given the chance to see MY SEMPAI again, even from his behind.

KINYOBI, DOYOBI, NICHIYOBI, GETSUYOBI

FRIDAY, Sep 9 : The Japanese Encounter
My status is "previously from duty" (aka "previous"). Fortunately, I don't have OR scheduled, although I assisted in one the day before - partial glossectomy with supra-omohyoid neck dissection - on a patient with squamous cell carcinoma of the tongue. It was my first OR in ENT and it was also the first time I saw a towel clip used on the tongue. It still looked painful even though the patient was under general anesthesia. I wonder how he felt when he woke up. No particular interesting cases seen in OPD. Just the usual impacted cerumen and otitis externa.

Pchan texted that she was coming over that night, with her Japanese friend. No matter what I tell Pchan, she kept insisting that she will bring her Jap friend to MY HOUSE, to MY ROOM, so that he can see MY COLLECTIONS. I tried to argue that her friend is male, and my room is a mess, and it would be better if we would just eat outside. But Pchan is deaf to reasons, so I had no choice but to give in. Perhaps the fact that we're also both broke and can't afford to eat out also helped me with my decision.

I had to take a quick bath before their arrival because I smelled like otitis media. LOL Anyway, they arrived around 930pm. I knew I was supposed to say something like "Hajimemashite!Yoroshiku onegaishimasu!" and usher them in with a word like "Dozo" or "Irrashaimase!", but this poor little girl just smiled blankly at them as she pointed them towards their seats. LOL What a time to actually lose my sense of speech. We talked for a while and did some introductions. His name was Saito Kazuya, 100% authentic Japanese from Tokyo, 21 y/o, male, business student from Soka Gakkai, presently studying here for a year as part of his educational course. He was no Kimura Takuya, but he didn't look bad either (I was actually expecting him to look bad, nyahahaha). Just very typical japanese features with heavy japanese accent in his speech. Surprisingly, he spoke relatively good Visayan, for someone who has only been here for four months. My mother talked and joked with him cos my mother is just like that, so friendly and talkative and funny. LOL We ate for a while, then I brought them up to my room (which I had hurriedly cleaned up), and while Pchan was playing around with my guitar and acting oh-so-Kitchie-Nadal (LOLz @ Pchan ^___^), I was busy racking up my brains trying to converse with Kazuya. I showed him some of my CDs, manga, and of course he easily noticed the anime posters on my walls. I just smiled, feeling slightly embarrassed that my room looked more like a store. [sheepish] We talked some more, and he ended up borrowing my L'arc~en~ciel and Morning Musume DVDs. I had to let him borrow, because it was a polite thing to do. But of course, I told him that he MUST protect it with his life and MUST return it at all cost, or else... (tee-hee ^.^) It was nice meeting him, and I hope the next time we meet, I could say more Japanese phrases and learn more from him. But I don't know though if I can meet him again.

Then I fell asleep while watching Sora Kara Furu Ichioku no Hoshi (One Billion Stars Falling From The Sky)... XD XD

SATURDAY, Sep 10 : Strolling Around
Woke up around 930am. It was my day off and Hya and I were supposed to go to the hospital to work on our medical records, but because we're just not morning persons, we ended up cancelling that plan. Instead, in the afternoon, we went to have our graduation pictures taken for the yearbook. Some Avon girls even put on make-up for us. I didn't really like how my picture turned out, it was a bit "un-me", so serious and so "old-looking", but I was too lazy to voice out that I didn't like it very much. Besides, if that's really my face then I really can't do anything about it, can I? LOL

It was raining very hard but off we went to Gaisano to eat (again!) at Lighthouse. Then braving through the heavy rains, we went to our dressmaker in Carmen because Hya wanted to have 2 more uniforms made. It was around 6 plus already, and the rain was still pouring, but we still insisted on going to SM to find The Chronicles of Narnia, which unfortunately, was out of stock as well. Hya ended up buying The Expanded Medicine Blue Book (nyahahaha.. so opposite of what we were planning to buy) and a Christian book called When God Writes Your Love Story, which I have already read a few years ago (the book review is somewhere in the archives...). I bought The Wonderful Wizard of Oz and The Turn of The Screw, because they were on sale. LOL Then we went home. Then I fell asleep again, tired after a whole day of strolling around.

SUNDAY, Sep 11 : Hero
Hya and I are on 24-duty this day, so we had to report to the hospital by 8am. Hya had breakfast while I had a banana, and by 9am, we have set up her laptop, all ready to watch 11 episodes of Kimura Takuya in HERO. Unfortunately, my plan of finishing half of the series by morning didn't turn out very well, since we had so many patients knocking on the office door every now and then. It was already around 1130am, and yet we only watched around 23 minutes of the first disc! u.u We managed to finish the first episode, and then had our lunch.

We went back to the office to continue on with our KimuTaku frenzy (he's just so cute!!), and although we still had lots of patients (and I even had to suture several of them in the ER.. XD) but we were able to watch more CDs in the afternoon. Around 3pm, we actually went to the store in front of the hospital to buy donuts and hard-boiled eggs (LOL!) In Hero, the characters were always eating, so Hya and I were also tempted to eat as well.. T.T Anyway, around 8pm, we left for dinner and came back an hour later. Saw 1-2 patients, then had a relatively peaceful night watching some more CDs. I would have preferred that we finish the series but we were only able to watch until episode 8 because we were sleepy already. Besides, we still have morning endorsements. We decided to save the rest of the episodes for our next duty ^.^

I had to suture 4 patients - on the chin, posterior ear, helix of ear and lower lip - and had to remove some foreign bodies (e.g. piece of crayon in a little girl's nose XD). Saw a total of around 13 patients for ENT and more than 5 patients for Ophtha. That's already TOO BUSY for a Sunday duty. [sigh] But then that is to be expected when you schedule two toxic clerks in one duty.

MONDAY, Sep 12 : Operating Room
There was supposed to be a nationwide transport strike, but there seemed to be no difference in the number of public utility vehicles in the city. I guess times are hard now and even motorela drivers can't afford to give up one day of income. Anyway, I spent the whole day in the operating room, and although I love the OR, but I was really feeling particularly sleepy (blame it on the CDs, LOL) so I was really not in the mood to assist. First case was a total thyroidectomy with selective neck dissection on a 23 y/o female with papillary carcinoma of the thryoid gland. It took about 4 hours to finish the operation, because the anatomy was already such a mess with all those gigantic lymph nodes that kept reminding me of durian. XD The second case followed, an open reduction with internal fixation of a mandibular fracture. This one I found quite interesting because we actually had to screw the broken bones together. It was already 430pm when I left the OR. Went home. Watched Sora Kara. Fell asleep. Woke up.

Now I'm blogging about my life. After this, I will have to finish my powerpoint presentation for this afternoon.

WATASHI WA "ENT-HNS" GIRL DE-SU.

I am the ENT-HNS (ears, nose, throat, head and neck sugery) GIRL. Well, at least until the 15th anyway. Then I'll become the OPHTHA GIRL. LOL

As a clerk for the ENT Department, I examine the ears of patients who mostly have impacted cerumen or otitis externa/media (ear infection). Sometimes we have patients who complain of allergic rhinitis or sinusitis, or else have neck masses like goiter or mandibular abscesses. If there are vehicular accidents or trauma patients who are brought to the emergency room, we are sometimes called to examine them and suture their wounds if their faces are involved. But most of the time, it's impacted cerumen and otitis externa. Ear infections are gross. And they smell bad. The OPD clinic sometimes reek of the odor if a lot of otitis patients come in for follow-up. x___X

For my last duty, I sutured a hack wound in the pinna of ear. The patient was hacked by her husband with a knife because he suspected her of having an affair. I also removed a fishing hook from the earlobe of a 2-year old boy who was accidentally "caught" (LOL) while bathing in the beach. Maybe later, I might assist in an operation. It's not really a busy department, but sometimes it's so hard to refer cases because we only have one resident.

What I like best about this rotation is the fact that Hya (the Ophtha Girl for now) and I have our 24-h duties together. So at night, when all the other major departments are so busy with their emergency cases, Hya and I are cooped up in the ENT-OPHTHA clinic, watching our VCDs in her laptop, LOLz! In our first duty, we watched One Million Stars Falling From The Sky, which surprised us a little because Kimura Takuya has a really different character here! We didn't finish that series though (I fell asleep! Nyahahahaha ^.^) In our second duty, we watched Battle Royale I, which also gave us quite a shock because we didn't expect that it was a very very VIOLENT movie. [sheepish] But of course, it's not always fun for us. We're on duty after all, and we do see emergency cases and prepare for morning endorsements. But since we're clerks who previously rotated in OB and Surgery Departments, nothing will faze us anymore.

Hm... I wonder what movies/series will Hya and I watch later... ^_______^

NEW SONG SELECTION

I changed the BGM playlist for my blog. These are all Japanese midis:

01. BEAUTIFUL ALONE (WeiB Kreuz OST)
-- Even though I haven't watched WeiB Kreuz yet, but this ranks as my most favorite from the OST. I think this was sung by the seiyuus (Seki Tomokazu, etc).

02. DRIVER'S HIGH (Great Teacher Onizuka anime OST)
-- This is my most favorite L'arc-en-ciel song! I love its upbeat tempo! ^.^

03. FOR FRUITS BASKET (Fruits Basket OST)
-- This is the opening song for Fruits Basket. It is one of my most favorite animes. [sings] "Let's stay together, itsuka..." [smiles]

04. FOURTH AVENUE CAFE (Rurouni Kenshin OST)
-- Another L'arc-en-ciel song. Actually, the first L'arc-en-ciel song I've heard. Rurouni Kenshin is my all-time most favorite anime.

05. FUKAI MORI (Inuyasha OST)
-- A cool song by Do As Infinity, one of my most favorite jpoop bands. Featured in their Deep Forest and Do The Best albums.

06. GRIP! (Inuyasha OST)
-- Another cool song featured in Inuyasha sung by Every Little Thing, the first jpop band that I actually liked, and still like even until now. This song is featured in their Many Pieces album.

07. KIMI SAE IREBA (Chuuka Ichiban OST)
-- One of my favorite anime songs, this one is from Cooking Master Boy. I think the song is sung by Deen. "Kimi Sae Ireba" means "As Long As I Have You".

08. POISON (Great Teacher Onizuka live drama OST)
-- The first midi I've downloaded. I thought it would have a nice sentimental value if it's part of the list. ^.^ This song is done by Sorimachi Takashi, and is the only non-anime soundtrack in my playlist.

09. READY STEADY GO (Full Metal Alchemist OST)
-- Another L'arc-en-ciel song! It's very upbeat and makes you just wanna shake your head till you go dizzy, hehehehe This song is featured in their Smile album.

10. SCARLET (Ayashi no Ceres OST)
-- This is a slow song featured as the opening theme for Ayashi no Ceres. I love the intro of this song.

11. THE STARRY SKY (Angelic Layer OST)
-- My favorite Angelic Layer song. AL is also one of my most favorite CLAMP animes, ranking very close to Card Captor Sakura and X-TV.

12. VOYAGE (Inuyasha OST)
-- I love Hamasaki Ayumi in this song! I also love the PV for this!

I guess that's about it. I really wanted to upload mp3s, but it takes so much time. [sad] I would've wanted my favorite Gackt, FIR, and Jay Zhou songs in the list, maybe even add a touch of Thai and Korean pop. But anyway, I still like this playlist. To those who do not watch animes, these songs will all sound foreign to you, hehehehe But to anime otakus, the BGM will make you feel right at home. ^____^

THE HYA INCIDENT


A funny/not-so-funny thing happened last night. Hya and I were on our way home from the hospital when she noticed that she didn't have her keys. While riding the motorela, she figured she must've left them inside her pad and decided to just slit the new "screen" of her window so that she can open her doorknob. We went on our separate ways and when I reached home, I immediately took off my smock, had dinner and absent-mindedly played some PC games. Then Hya texted me that Bandoy is already at her place and that I should go there already to help make our report. She also texted, in a worried tone, that she had to go back to the hospital to find her keys, because she couldn't find them anywhere. So I took my smock from the chair where I carelessly threw it aside and prepared to leave when I noticed that both pockets were jingling. I emptied the many many contents, and lo and behold! I was able to fish out Hya's set of keys. I must've borrowed them to use the hospital toilet, and probably forgot to return them! X___x Perhaps also,it was my klepto-hands being at work again. LOL Tonikaku, my carelessness has made my friend worried sick and made her destroy her window. [squirms in shame] It must not happen again.

I gave Hya her belated tanjoubi puresento already the other day. It was my sister's idea that I should give her something different and more "personalized", instead of the usual blanks cds that I always give her. So we went to OneTech last Sunday and decided to get Hya a watch with Gackt's (lovely) face printed on it. We weren't really sure how it would turn out, but when we got it after an hour, it was really VERY VERY NICE! It was very cool, and just looking at the face of the watch with Gackt's (lovely) face on it totally gave me goosebumps! (He's so beautiful! ^.^) When we personally delivered the gift to Hya, she started screaming and getting all super excited. Then on Monday, at the hospital, she showed it off to most of our classmates. LOL I told her that with that watch, she can see Gackt all the "TIME", LOL But still it didn't help her be more punctual for morning endorsements. ^.^

BABAENG MABABAW ANG KALIGAYAHAN

[points to today's blog title] YEP! THAT'S ME! As Hya would have nicely said it, "We're both simple-minded. It doesn't take much to make us happy." And it's true. I easily take joy in the little pleasures in life.

The other day, it was Hya's birthday, and she was so nice to celebrate it with Shay, Maggie and me. Sadly, her two other closest friends, Milay and Franc, couldn't come because of their hospital responsibilities. Hya took us to Lighthouse for dinner and it was really a stomach-filling and uber-happy time together for the four of us, just playfully teasing each other and recounting funny experiences in the hospital. And Shay also revealed something quite shocking to us! [sigh] Some people are just so lucky ne... [grins] During our conversation, we saw Sean outside the restaurant and we waved at her to come inside. She was already five months pregnant, but looking so so so much sexier than ever before! She provided us with lots of laughters cos, knowing Sean, all that ever comes out of her mouth are really wacky and crazy ideas! It was a really a great time that night and we all enjoyed the celebration. I'm so happy I met Hya in my life because we get along so so well and we share so much interests that no one else can actually understand (e.g. Gackt, LOL). Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HYA! I'll get you a belated birthday gift soon. I'm still trying to come up with a birthday puresento that will make you absolutely ecstatic!

Today, I received a parcel from my friend Jan from GenSan. She wrote, in her microscopic handwriting, a 61-paged letter for me which I haven't even finished reading yet as of this moment. I'm very thankful for her long letter, because it reflects her passion and her effort to communicate and share her thoughts with me. Even though we've never seen each other personally before - just met her once in the net around 4 years ago when I was still actively chatting in mIrc - but we've kept in touch all these years. It's a nice feeling to be able to keep your friends near, even though they are physically far away from you. [smiles] Anyway, Jan was quite thoughtful. She also sent me Gatekeepers Spirits OST and a CD full of manga scanlations! I've actually heard of scanlations, but have never seen or downloaded any of them before, so it was such a delight to see scans from comic books which I have never even heard of like Happy Pharmacy, Minto no Bokura and Sora Sora. There's also 8 volumes of Marmalade Boy! But the bestest scanlation in the CD was SEVEN CHAPTERS OF TSUBASA RESERVOIR CHRONICLES!!! I was so excited and so happy, I immediately read it! LOL Told ya it's THAT easy to please me! [grins] ShaoRan is just so cute!!! Luv him heaps! I wish the anime would be fan-subbed and would reach here soon. Can't wait na eh! (^o^)v

Anyway, the physician's licensure exam results for this year came out already. It was a very disappointing 53% passing rate for our university, the lowest, I believe, in the entire history of the college of medicine. I feel sad for those who weren't able to make it this time (but there's always a next time, AJA!), and I feel a bit freaked out that I will be taking that same exam in the near future [goes down on knees and starts praying], BUT! But even with this sad news, I was still able to smile and rejoice with those who passed. I know several of those who made it, like Mommy JJ, Gina and Hanni. Many congratulations!!! [throws confetti] I just feel so happy for them. But of course I am most happiest [beams with exuberance and pride] because MY SEMPAI passed! MY SEMPAI - who was the object of my attention and "stalker activities" in first year, who was the source of my inspiration and encouragement during exams, whose sweet smile and gentle hello's could instantly turn the worst of times into the most magical and most perfect moments... That special person - MY SEMPAI - is now officially a licensed physician! I can't help but feel a glorious swelling deep within my chest (er no, it's not a cardiac enlargement! @__@). I just feel so happy for him! Although I never doubted, not even once, that he would pass the exam, because he was always so passionate and so dedicated to this field, he was always so responsible and so serious with his studies. I'm just so proud of him! But, [smiles sadly] he will never know that, ne? I will never, never, NEVER text him. NEVER. I'm already contented that I can rant about him in my blog, that I can take a little part of his happiness with me, and that I can pray for the best for him in my little corner of the world. I'm happy with that already. I heard he's planning to apply as a surgery resident in a hospital that is more than willing to take him in, and so now I'm making plans of having my post-graduate internship in that same hospital. Nyahahaha JOKE. But I know that he will excel and be successful as a doctor, and as a person. I KNOW because he's MY SEMPAI, MY WONDERFUL AND THOUGHTFUL SEMPAI, and I will faithfully remain as his nameless, faceless, most supportive "stalker" for all eternity. ^________^