BOYS OVER FLOWERS

{happy mode}

I got the CDs from Andrew today. YEY! ^o^ I don’t know when I’ll be able to watch them though, but I’m still so excited!!! We ordered the following:

Jap Dorama
Food Fight
Kimi Wa Petto
Pride (a new copy with better subs)

Anime
Otogizoushi
Gundam Seed
Gravitation
Hana Yori Dango
Tsubasa Chronicle eps 12 to 26
Inuyasha Movie 4

Um… actually, only the doramas, Kimi Wa Petto (MATSUJUN!!!!!) and Pride (KIMUTAKU!!!!!) belong to me. The rest belong to my friends, but anyway, I can just borrow and burn from them if I want a copy for myself. I also have complete scanlations for Hana Yori Dango, Card Captor Sakura, Rurouni Kenshin, and Ranma 1/2 - a generous Christmas freebie from Andrew (Tenkyuuuuu cousin! ^O^). I can’t wait to read them! (^O^)v

My obsession over Hana Yori Dango is back again after watching the Jap TV version, that’s why we opted to order just about anything related to HanaDan! In fact, I just reviewed the HanaDan anime, and I actually even shed a few tears, especially when Doumyouji says, “Ore ga omae wa shinjiru..” (I believe in you...) Oooohhhh!! I JUST LOVE THAT LINE! ^O^ I’m thinking of even reviewing Meteor Garden now, just to refresh my HanaDan feelings once more. Gosh, I just love HanaDan!!! It’s perhaps my most favorite shoujo story. ^____^

AMARDS

Today, we had our Christmas party in Maria Reyna Hospital. I actually had a pretty enjoyable time doing the decorations, helping with the preparations, and watching the program proper. I even felt happy and proud that Bandoy won second place in the singing contest while our booth placed third among the seven decorated booths from the different departments of the hospital. But I was disheartened towards the end of the party. Out of the blue, catching me by surprise, the emcee announced that the surgery residents were going to perform a special number. There are only two surgery residents in the hospital. One is my sempai. The other one is... HER.

I’ve always been uncomfortable with the fact that my sempai’s co-resident is a young, single, female, much more his classmate in med school. And she actually seems like a nice and fun person, and I later learned tonight, that she even possesses talents that she can boast of. And I was even more uncomfortable seeing them together all the time, eating their breakfasts together, going on rounds together, and most painful of all is to hear nurses and even other residents calling them “LOVEBIRDS” behind their backs. But of course I’ve kept all these thoughts to myself, because I really don’t have any right whatsoever over my sempai’s life. And as I’ve told him before, I don’t expect anything from him. And yet, I also didn’t expect that my sempai would, inadvertently, cause me so much pain. T__T

Lately, we hardly even talk or even look at each other. My sempai is really friendly, but lately he feels so distant. But maybe it’s also because of me. Because I’m now feeling too shy to even meet him in the eye, and when I attempt to say something to him, I choke up incomprehensible syllables that hardly make any sense. But still I was contented with that. I don’t care at all if my sempai doesn’t talk to me or doesn’t even look at me as long as I can see him everyday. My wish is that simple. And yet, tonight, I feel so disheartened over him. When the emcee announced that SHE and my sempai were performing a song number together, and I could hear the catcalls and whistles of approval from the nurses and residents, I felt like my whole body was doused with a pail of ice cold water. I clapped my hands but I felt all numbed. I didn’t even care that my sempai was singing. For the first time, I didn’t think what he was doing was cute at all. I wouldn’t couldn’t look at them sing “Pasko Na, Sinta Ko” together (what the %#@$^ with that song!). I was seriously deliberating walking out from the place or breaking into tears right then and there. But I thought it would be too corny and too dramatic, and so inappropriate. So the entire time, I just sat there with a very sullen face, listening but not really hearing anything, all life force drained from my body… I thought again that my sempai was selfish. He knows very well that I like him a lot, and yet he does things that give me a sour-kind of pain in my chest. Probably he doesn’t do it on purpose, but the things he does still make me sad. And now THIS DUET! I felt like I want to stab him with a newly sharpened Mongol pencil #3. Sempai wa HIDOI!!!! HI-DO-I!!!!

DAI-KI-RAI!!!!!!!! >:(







Anyway, just to keep my mind off from being too depressed, Catherine already gave me my VCDs from Manila, and Hya and I were so overwhelmed at the BIG BOX OF CDs that we received! We both feel so happy! We immediately started watching Hana Yori Dango, and dear heavens!, SUTEKI DA NE!!! We love it so much! We’re now on ep5 but Hya has to go home already since it’s already 130am. Tee-hee. ^o^ But I will probably finish the rest of the episodes now, never mind that I still have to do a report on meconium aspiration. HanaDan is just so wonderful! I’ve always been a big follower of the story – from the anime to the Meteor Garden craze a long long time ago. And now when I learned that there is a new jap TV series based on it, I was ecstatic! ^o^ At first I thought Matsumoto Jun was not fitting as Doumyouji, but later on changed my mind because now I really like him so much!!! (^O^) And then add the fact that Oguri Shun plays Hanazawa Rui makes it even more special! I even like the girl playing Makino Tsukushi because she’s really cute! The flow of the story is a bit fast-paced, and they’ve deleted many scenes and characters and had many revisions from the original story, but it’s still worth watching! In fact, it makes it even more exciting. Even though I already know the story, I still can’t wait to see what will happen in the next episodes! I hope I won’t be disappointed!

KANASHIMI NO TSUBASA

“The real princess... doesn’t call me ‘Syaoran’ anymore...”

I’m really loving every minute of TRC. I love the characters. I love the different settings. I love their change of clothes. I love the songs. I love the BGM. I love the story. But most of all, I love my ShaoRan!!! He’s so kakkoi, all mature and grown up yet still possessing that cute face that I love so dearly. Yet, there is a certain deep sadness in his character that absolutely just breaks my heart. u.u I wish Andrew gets the rest of the episodes soon. I absolutely don’t know how I can live on without the rest of the TRC episodes. It would be like, totally unimaginable!!! ^o^

Anyway, good news is, Catherine is coming home tomorrow!! YAY!!! ^___________^ My best friend is coming home from Manila and staying here for good. I know it will be a bit sad for her since she’s been living in Manila for like 8 years already, but I’m sure she’s also glad to be back home. And tomorrow, she’ll be bringing almost 200 cds for us!! YAY!!!! New titles to add to our growing video collection are the following:


Japanese Dorama
Gokusen 1 + special
Gokusen 2
Hana Yori Dango the series (starring MatsuJun and Oguri Shun!!!!! ^o^)
Orange Days
Stand Up
Shinjuku Boy Detectives (movie)

Korean Series
Banjun
Bittersweet Life (movie)
Damo
I’m Sorry I Love You
Match Made In Heaven
My 19 Year Old Sister-in-Law
Only You
Prince’s First Love
Wonderful Life

I’m so excited!!! * * ^_____________^ * *

Lastly, I was off from any hospital duties today, and I’m grateful to have a chance to go out with my family. We had a late lunch at East Wok (YUM!) then we watched King Kong. Actually, I really wasn’t planning on watching the movie because I really didn’t care about the love story of a monstrous ape, but surprisingly, it was quite OK. I had fun. And so did my parents and my sister. In fact, my father liked it so much! He enjoyed every minute of it, and said it was PhP55 well spent. Well I’m just glad that we all had a good time today.
v(^o^)v

THE STORY OF US ICE

Once upon a time, there was this really adorable Pedia senior clerk carrying a bag of ice towards the Emergency Room. On her way, she met this absolutely cute male surgery resident who was also headed towards the same direction. The really adorable Pedia senior clerk smiled shyly at the absolutely cute male surgery resident, her eyes almost afraid to meet his gaze. To her surprise, he actually returned the smile! And more amazingly, he spoke to her…

ACMSR (absolutely cute male surgery resident): *points to the bag with a mischievous grin* Is that food?

RAPSC (really adorable Pedia senior clerk): *shakes head sheepishly* Err, no. It’s ice.

They both looked at each other for a split second, smiling.

Then they went their separate ways.

And they lived happily ever after.

THE END.

This short story is entitled “MY THREE-SECOND CONVERSATION WITH MY SEMPAI – A TRUE STORY”. ^_________^

(bow)

FEATHERS OF MEMORIES

I’ve started watching Tsubasa Chronicle now and finished 6 episodes in one sitting. I am a mix of emotions right now. I feel very excited, because I’m seeing well-loved CLAMP characters before my very eyes, yet I’m feeling extremely sad as well. WHY, OH WHY DOES MY SHAORAN HAVE TO SUFFER SO MUCH!? I felt a squeezing tightness in my chest as he held the hands of an unconscious Sakura, and the tears just fell from the corners of my eyes. I was even more distressed when Sakura opened her eyes and upon seeing my ShaoRan, uttered “Who are you?!” to him. It was like my world crashed into pieces. It’s not happy-joy-joy like Card Captor. In fact, I don’t want to compare it because both are different but equally wonderful CLAMP animations. But I don’t want to watch it anymore, not because I don’t like it, but because I LIKE IT SO MUCH but I only have until episode 11. So if I finish everything tonight, I will be frustrated for the rest of the week because then I will be left wondering what happens next. [grumble... grumble...] I wish Andrew obtains the rest of the episodes soon. I can’t wait to complete my copy. But then I have a feeling the anime will also be unfinished, since I think the manga is still ongoing...

But at least I was able to download the opening and ending songs. Gosh, I just love BLAZE by Kinya and LOOP by Sakamoto Maaya!! ^____^ I think both songs are really appropriate for the story. And the opening and ending clips, by the way, totally capture my heart. I don’t know. Maybe I’m just so biased because it’s my ShaoRan and you know how much I love this little guy! [winks]

I took a TRC character test the other night, and TA-DAH! This is the result:



I definitely agree with the “often times very sleepy” part... Nyahahahahaha ^___^

RE-TREAT: TO TREAT (OURSELVES) AGAIN

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." (Matthew 11:28)

Our whole class went for a retreat since Friday (December 9) until Sunday (December 11). We were all excited because #1. We were all excused from hospital duties (THANK YOU LORD! ^___^), and #2. We were all going to the Monastery of Transfiguration in Malaybalay, Bukidnon, an estimated two-hour bus ride from our city! All of us battered clerks were very much looking forward to this trip since ... well, since the beginning of this crazy school year. O__o

Anyhoo, it was really quite an experience! The place was beautiful! There were so many trees and flowers and mountains, and you could really hear the sound of silence. The air was cool, the water was freezing! ^o^ The rooms were cozy. There was no pressure at all to wake up early or to attend to patient’s needs or to prepare for morning endorsements or to run like crazy when your ward is paging for you. In fact, when Momin shared that it was the first time since a very long time that he felt NORMAL again, I almost cried. It’s true. We have been physically, mentally, emotionally, psychologically and spiritually harassed, trampled upon and overworked for the past nine months. We’ve all been living like zomboids the whole time – catching some quick sleep but never really sleeping, eating canteen food but not really tasting anything, attending to so many patients whom we hardly even know, doing things like NGT insertions or gastric lavage which seems like the weirdest things in this world to do, reporting during morning endorsements but seemingly mindless while doing so, exceptionally tired but still running around and carrying out orders, existing but not actually living… For nine months we have been to hell and back (actually, we’re still not back yet…). So at least for three whole days, we were able to take a relaxing break from this crazy and incomprehensible lifestyle we’ve chosen. Indeed, THANK YOU LORD! Words are not enough to thank God for such a refreshing time off from our usual stressful days. At least during the retreat, in the stillness and calmness of the surroundings, where time seems to be slowly moving in its own pace, we were able to get in touch with God, and with our own selves. We were able to pray, and reflect on our own lives. We were able to meditate and contemplate. We were able to rest, but at the same time have fun with friends. Yes, for THREE DAYS we were NORMAL INDIVIDUALS. Not senior clerks. For three days, we were energized, revitalized, empowered, regenerated, rejuvenated, enlightened…

For three days, we were free...

WHAT I FEEL, I DON’T DO. WHAT I DO NOT FEEL, I DO.

I was supposed to have the afternoon off. However, Dr Go had scheduled a Christmas party for his leukemia patients today, so I had to stay behind with Hya, Pie and Bandoy to help with the preparations. Achim and Pong2x were nice enough to help us out. We started decorating yesterday but did the final touches this morning, and in fairness, even with such hasty preparations, the conference room looked great! I felt really proud. ^____^

The program started around 230pm. There were so many children, probably ranging from ages 5 to 17, most of them wearing masks signifying their immunocompromised state. There were some speeches at first, then WE (the clerks) were called in front to do a song number (nyahahahaha… DON’T ASK! ^o^). Then the children played some games after which a hearty snacking session followed. Some of the children also showcased their singing and dancing talents, then there was gift-giving and awarding of prizes to the best belen made. I actually didn’t expect to have fun since it was still my third day in my Pedia rotation, but surprisingly, I enjoyed the party. I liked making the decors, I didn’t feel ashamed singing in front of many strangers, I ate free food, I received a kiddie goodie bag, I “stole” a yellow balloon, and I was able to take a picture with a Winnie the Pooh mascot [rolls eyes and grins]. I had a really grand time. It’s like going back into being a child once again.

On the other side of the story, I feel very pissed off right now because of a certain person whose name I DON’T FEEL LIKE revealing. All I just want to say is that in this world, there are really some people who are too lazy, too self-centered, too pigheaded, too cooped up on themselves to even care about other people. I wonder how these people can actually become good doctors and useful members of the society if still at this point in time, they remain stubborn and refuse to cooperate with the team. May God have mercy on their souls.

To top things off, I feel like my sempai is ignoring me. WHY WILL HE DO THAT!?! [cries a pailful] It’s just that I feel like he’s not so close to us clerks anymore, probably since some of his batchmates went into residency in MRH as well. (There’s actually a female surgery resident in MRH now. FEMALE SURGERY RESIDENT. u__u) Or perhaps I’m just plain paranoid. Hya said I’m just imagining things. She said it’s ME who refuses to look at my sempai or talk with him. [shocked] WHY WOULD I DO THAT!?! Why the heck would I ignore my sempai when he’s the sole reason of my existence when he’s the only reason I’m so excited to be back in MRH?! Why would I ignore my sempai when all I want is to stare at him the whole day while he goes about doing his daily activities? Why would I ignore my sempai when I haven’t seen him for a month and I miss him so much? There is absolutely no reason for me to ignore my sempai! [shakes head fervently]

Perhaps my sempai is really ignoring me. Perhaps he’s too embarrassed at what happened before. [NGEEEEEE!!! 0__o] Or maybe, he’s too tired already because they’ve put him in 48 hour duty set-up, which I think is crazy because that would mean my sempai will be overworked and which would also mean that we won’t be on duty together anymore [sad]. Or maybe, just maybe, I’m just plain crazy to be writing about this.

[sighs]