Friday, April 28, 2006
I haven't really updated my blog lately about what's happening to my life, since I was too preoccupied ranting about ISWAK, but I've graduated last March and now I'm in Manila already, because I was accepted at Philippine General Hospital for my post-graduate intership (PGI).
Manila is totally new to me. I don't know any of the places. I don't know how to ride jeepneys. I don't know where to shop. I don't even know how to communicate fluently. And stuffs here are quite expensive! From internet to food to clothes to transportation to those shelves-of-mangas-that-I-so-love-dearly-but-can-only-stare-at-with-goo-goo-eyes, everything here needs money! And as a PGI who has to work with no monetary returns, money is something I don't have. u___u
About our intership, we will start on May 1. I will first rotate in Community Med and we will be traveling to Sto. Tomas, Batangas every week to immerse ourselves in the community. I met my groupmates already. They seem quite nice, but I'm still hesitant to talk with them because I have a hard time speaking in Tagalog. I can't seem to understand them too. Cho-baka de-su. What was the use in taking all those years of Filipino classes when I still can't communicate fluently in what is supposed to be my national language? XD
Anyway, we already had our intership orientation, and it seems that we will have loads of work in PGH. It's like doing clerkship all over again for one year, only we're in a much bigger hospital and we have to speak in Tagalog. XD I sometimes laugh whenever I imagine myself asking a patient, "Manong, anu po ang iyong binabati? Lumalabad po ba ang iyong ulo?!" u__u;;; *sigh* But the workload is really crazy. I feel a bit sad when I think of my other classmates acting like residents already in other private hospitals, and getting enough time to sleep and study for the board exams, while we are slaving away here at PGH, doing the things we already did for the past year. Leslie and Shay2x are so depressed now and they want to go home. I hate the work too but I chose this path and therefore I will have to deal with it. I told them that even if PGH will force me out, I'd rather die than leave. Some heavy words eh. LOL I'm surprised actually why I'm dead-set on staying or why I'm acting so *strong*. I don't even know why I'm in PGH. Perhaps this is God's will. Perhaps I'm just trying to save my face and my pride. I don't know.
What I do know is that I miss my family. I miss my father, my mother, my sister and my friends. I miss my dogs. I miss my friends. I miss every corner of CDO. I miss all the malls and the jeepneys and the motorelas and the fact that I can travel anywhere without having to worry about snatchers or traffics. I miss my life. I miss my CDs. I miss ISWAK. I miss my lousy dial up connection. I miss my room. I miss my posters. I miss everything that I chose to give up for a year just so I can be in this
I'm glad about a few things here though. They have lots of nice things (like mangas, hahaha) and nice foods. Even though I can't afford them, I still love looking at them. They have MRT too, and I like the feeling of riding it. Here I also have my relatives who don't know me but are now trying to know me. I met my Ahpe already (he gave me food and money, hehehehe) and tomorrow my 4-ko will fetch me and tour me around. Also here in Manila, I am closer to friends whom I only texted before, like Ate Cecille (who told me that I will always have a house in Pasig where I can relax), and Suoh-san (who was so uber-nice enough to take me to Megamall and Greenhills where the *goodies* are ^o^) and Trina and Fangli and Andrew and Okita-kun who I plan to meet eventually. There's even an Anime Illusions meeting on the 19th, but I'm not sure if I can go. All these I've always wanted to do before, and now I can do them. It's no longer a dream to meet all these people and to go to all these places. But still, yeah, it's expensive bah! ^O^ And I have to speak in Tagalog! LOL Oh. One more thing. There are a lot of cute guys here in Manila. *rotfl* J/K.
Right now I'm in Robinson's Place using an internet connection that costs PhP50 per hour (what the %^&*#!). I've been walking around the mall for like 3 hours but I still don't understand the structure of the building. I have no sense of direction after all. I want to buy/do a lot of things, yet I can't afford to buy/do them and I don't know where to go or what to do anymore. All these walking around only made me dizzy and tired. Yes, I am lost. I am bored. And my feet hurt. And that's why I'm here blogging, even though my thoughts are so disorganized.
Misakichan is in Manila. Yey. u___u
Monday, April 24, 2006
I really really love ISWAK. I think I can watch it over and over and over forever. ^O^
Joe Zheng is so adorable. Never mind that he has a scary and loud way of laughing. LOL It's cute! He's so cute! ^O^
{wedding video}
Jiang Zhi Shu
Isn’t marriage just like that,
Two people loving till the end,
loving so dramatically?!
*bored look*
When they first meet, they are just like a kettle of cold water.
You passionately try to heat it up,
Keep heating it,
Heat it till the water boils.
And then you’ll ask:
"After that what should we do?"
All the way until marriage,
Everything that should be done has been done.
What should be hot has already been overheated,
The original kettle full of water has dried up.
Love is gone.
Wait till the kettle is burnt
Either they break us up,
Or struggle on until the bottom of the kettle has a whole.
Nothing is left.
*voice becoming even more sarcastic*
Love is gone. Kettle is gone. Water is also gone.
Everything is gone.
Yuan Xiang Qin
*pouts*
So your meaning is that you don’t love me?
*mumbles*
Should’ve said that earlier.
Jiang Zhi Shu
*whispers to her ear*
The exact opposite.
*looks shy and cute ^O^*
I’ll love you more and more.
Our water will be kept constantly heated,
I’ll slowly wait till it boils,
And then keep it warm.
Let it always be at the boiling point.
Yuan Xiang Qin
*smiles and plays dumb*
Don’t understand...
Jiang Zhi Shu
*looks a bit exasperated but still cute ^O^*
Meaning is I’ll keep on loving you.
Keep loving, keep loving,
Keep loving til we’re old and wrinkled
Is that good enough?
Yuan Xiang Qin
*happy little puppy look*
Yeah, That I understand... ^O^
Saturday, April 22, 2006
*chinese text input by misakichan, from the ISWAK ending theme (which is my current most favorite song). ^O^
Ohmygoodness! I finished IT STARTED WITH A KISS (ISWAK) eps 7-14 tonight!! I want to continue, but I figured my mom will freak out if she sees that I haven't cleaned up the mess I made for the past week in our living room table. So I decided to stop. But then the love for ISWAK led me to the PC, and led my fingers to start typing this entry. It started a blog lah. LOLz. Oh well. For the love of ISWAK, let's blog! ^O^
I so so so so so so so so LOVE ISWAK. Grabeh. As in it's really the same level as my love for Meteor Garden ONE. Grabeh. One minute I'm laughing so hard at Xiang Qin's stupid and cute moments (tanga talaga sya! tanga! LOLz XD) and the next minute I'm shedding streams of tears as she bawls and cries and gets hurt for something related to Zhi Shu. Gosh. Grabe. I love Ariel Lin! She's so absolutely cute and perky and bubbly. I think she really played out the character well. I hope I can watch her other series!
And then I realized that Joe Zheng Yuan Chang is an absolute cutie! Whenever I see his dimples, damn, I feel like I can drown in them. And although his character is smooth and suave, I think IRL he's a funny guy. Because when he laughs at the NGs and during adlibs, he'd laugh HAHAHA so loudly lah! It's so so cute! ^O^ He acts so cool and indifferent as Jiang Zhi Shu, but you know he loves Xiang Qin because he often makes this movement with his lips when he seems amuse or move by whatever sweet thing Xiang Qin does for him. And my gosh. Check out the lips. They are thin and absolutely KISSABLE. Grabeh. Me wanna kiss. chuuuuuu~ chuuuuu~ chuuuuu~ *rotfl* What the-- he's 3 months YOUNGER THAN ME!?! *pauses* I don't care. I want him. I want him lah!
While surfing, I found out he appeared in a CTS drama before called MAGIC RING. Ohmygoodness, I've watched some episodes of this before! But I cannot remember him! I also know he appeared in THE ROSE too. Is he the guy Syivee told me before? Oh my. Is he? But wasn't there a brokeback scene in The Rose where two guys kiss each other? Oh my. *closes eyes* But! I still want to buy ALL of his series!! I want to buy ALL of Ariel Lin's series too!!! Me want more of them lah! But ISWAK is the absolute best! It's so super sweet sweet lah. (And I'm using "lah" for emphasis as if I'm Singaporean or Malaysian, which I'm not. But I'm chinese lah! LOL)
ISWAK... *sigh* I can't decide which is my favorite scene. Or my favorite line. There are just too many! Hm... well, here's one I can just recall from my memory...
zhong er yuan zhi... uh, in conclusion (gosh, i'm brushing up on my mandarin. wa nah ni. XD), everyone must watch ISWAK lah. For that really kilig experience which I am at a loss for words to describe right now. Watch it to know what the heck I'm rambling incoherently about, and to understand why I would gladly sacrifice my hours of sleep for a CD marathon of this.
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
KYAAAAAHHH!!!!!!! **ranting fan girl mode on** ^___________^
Ohmygoodness! Ohmygoodness! I can’t even begin to describe how super happy I am!!!! ^O^
Hya came back from Butuan, bringing back with her MY copy of It Started with a Kiss and My Girl (but she borrowed the latter so I only have ISWAK now.) Ohmygoodness! I’ve started watching ISWAK and ohmygoodness! I think I can simply die in pure bliss. LOLz! It is so so so so so so so so so so so so so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeetttt!!!! I love it when I saw the random episodes on TV... I’m loving it even more now that I can watch all the episodes in the correct order and with NO advertisements!! Hahaha! Ohmygoodness! It is so sweeeeeeeet!!! (Oh. I said that already!? Nyahahaha ^O^). Promise! I’ve not felt this extremely happy and giddy over a Taiwanese drama since I first saw Meteor Garden in 2001, which made me the ultimate HanaDan manga/anime/dorama fan. Now I’m proud to declare to the whole world that I’m also a certified ItaKiss manga/dorama fan, never mind that I haven’t read the manga, and never mind that I still cannot find the j-dorama version. I love the story so so so so much! ^O^
It Started with a Kiss is a 20-episode Taiwanese drama aired in CTV late 2005 based on the 23-volume manga Itazura na Kiss by Tada Kaoru which was also previously made into a 9-episode j-dorama starring Kashiwabara Takashi (absolute bishie!!! ^O^) and Sato Aiko in 1996. ISWAK is the story of Yuan Xiang Qin (Kotoko in Japanese) of Class F who has always had a crush on the smart-aleck from Class A, Jiang Zhi Shu (Naoki in Japanese), ever since the very first day she had set her eyes on him. The series starts off with Xiang Qin nervously handing a letter confessing her two-year adoration to Zhi Shu, only to be rejected outright by the guy and become the laughingstock of their school. And to make matters worse, the next day, while Xiang Qin and her dad were moving into their new house, there was a sudden earthquake which made their entire house collapse, leaving them homeless. But, as if fate has decided to take our lady protagonist’s side, a really close friend of Xiang Qin's dad from high school saw them on TV, and offers for them to stay at his house. With nowhere else to go, the father and daughter agreed with the arrangement. Xiang Qin, however, was in for the shock of her life when she arrives at the place and saw that Jiang Zhi Shu is actually the son of her dad’s friend and they will actually be living together in the same house! ^O^
Jiang Zhi Shu is the super-smart, all-too-perfect prince who always seems to possess a cool and indifferent facade. Yuan Xiang Qin is cute and cheerful, but is absolutely dim-witted and clumsy, and couldn’t do anything right. What can possibly happen when two opposite individuals are placed under the same roof?! Will Xiang Qin’s jolly attitude break through Zhi Shu’s unruffled exterior!? Will they fall in love for each other?! Is there a happy ending!? And why on earth is the drama entitled “It Started with a Kiss”?!!
That’s for me to know. Nyahahahahahahahahahaha! n___n
I WANT TO FALL IN LOVE TOO!!! ^______________^
*fan girl mode to be continued..*
Monday, April 17, 2006
Today, my mom, my sis and I went to visit my aunt and uncle (they are my mom's siblings) who live in Camella Homes. Aku Joe was busy re-painting their grills while Ah-e was just, well, being
Afterwards, we then went off to SM to buy some clothes for me to take to Manila. Since I don’t usually buy clothes (cos I always use up all my money to buy CDs ;__;) so I desperately need a whole new set of wardrobes. It was a good thing we only shopped for a while, because I really don’t like shopping for clothes. I get a bit dizzy. o__0
My father was in Limketkai Mall, but he texted that he will come after us, and so my mom met up with him while my sis and I strolled a bit around the mall. We went to Toy Kingdom and saw a lot of toys which we liked. Their Gundam models were on sale, and some were as cheap as PhP 200! Me wanna buy... T__T I heard Haku-sama was able to buy one. [envious] I wonder which model he bought... Probably GW.
Anyway, we also went to a new bookstore called Booksale. We were rummaging through a pile of books and my sister luckily came across a Japanese manga about baseball called Touch (v.22)! It didn’t have a colored cover anymore and has a slight “old” smell, but the pages were not yellowish and were as crisp as new. Authentic Japanese manga ne, for only PhP 44. Cheap! So I bought it. ^O^ I also liked a lot of books there, but I really don’t have the time to read now. But I want to buy the picture book about pandas and this Pokemon graphic novel from Viz. A relatively outdated copy, but still a graphic novel. If I have extra money, I’ll go back for those two books.
We then met up with our parents and had dinner at Dimsum Diner (oishi desu!! ^O^), then bought some groceries. We sat for a while in the benches, and I saw (WHOA!) Mayor Emano! LOLz ^O^ It was my first time to actually see him in person, but he looked pretty much the same as he does on TV. He had a lot of bodyguards. Whoa. Really.
We went home afterwards, and I went to my room and ... fell asleep! XD Actually I just woke up now and decided to blog today’s events before I start making my FaMed portfolio, which is a requirement for clearance. I’m really not in the mood to make it, been pushing it off everyday, but I must really make it now. u__u
What I’m in the mood to do actually is to watch Hachimitsu no Clover. I previously liked the first three episodes, but only continued watching it earlier today. It’s a slice of life type of anime about three art students – Mayama, Morita, and Takemoto – who live together in a slightly rundown place, and their experiences in life and love. Despite the relaxed pace and the funny and cute antics, it somehow possesses a semi-sad feel. u__u Their interrelationships and encounters with other people somehow bring a sort of squeeze in the chest. I’m still on episode 7, but what I love about this anime (besides the heartwarming story) is the excellent soundtrack. So far, I was able to download 12 tracks: Dramatic (OP theme), **Hachigatsu no Serenade, **Hachimitsu, Hakou, Mistake, Sakana, **Sorosoro Ikanakucha, **Tsuki no Naifu, **Waltz (ED theme), Weekend, **Yoru wo Kakeru and Yubikiri. I love ALL of them, especially those I labeled with ** ^O^. Listening to this kind of music somehow relaxes me, eases away all my worries in life.
Quote of the Day
Once there was an island where feelings lived. It was announced that the island was going to sink in the ocean. Feelings prepared to leave.
LOVE asked RICHNESS, “Can I come with you on your boat?”
RICHNESS: “Sorry, but many gold and silver are here.”
LOVE: “SADNESS, please let me go with you.”
SADNESS: “I’m sorry but I want to be alone.”
LOVE: “HAPPINESS, I’ll go with you.”
But HAPPINESS did not hear what LOVE said.
TIME: “LOVE, come, I’ll take you with me.”
LOVE felt so blessed and overjoyed.
LOVE: “Why did you help me, TIME?”
TIME: “Coz only TIME is capable of understanding how great LOVE is...”
Comment
Err... Time is NOT a feeling. Richness too... 0__o
OK, ‘nuff said! XD XD XD
Saturday, April 15, 2006
I almost panicked when I opened my blog and all I could see was a blank blue page staring back at me.
KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't know what went wrong but that freakin' scared me. It's now fixed, but I really don't understand what happened.
Just like I don't understand why I still cannot download eXdream from Suoh-san's site after so many retries.
Just like I don't understand why my IDA is suddenly not functioning.
Just like I don't understand why on earth do I still have so many charts to finish.
Just like I don't understand why I have to re-type all the surgical techniques I previously submitted just because my resident decided to keep those papers which I now realize holds part of the key for my hospital clearance.
Just like I don't understand how I'm going to survive in Manila for a year knowing that I have a sleeping problem.
Just like I don't understand how I'm going to survive my first three weeks in Manila cos we just learned we will only be allowed inside the dorm two weeks after.
Just like I don't understand how I'm going to survive my one year in Manila with no definite sponsor for my expenses.
Just like I don't understand why my room is still not clean no matter how many times I try to clean it.
Just like I don't understand why I'm suddenly not posting in CDOtakus anymore.
Just like I don't understand why I keep burning cds I don't watch.
Just like I don't understand why I keep re-arranging my cds over and over and over again.
Just like I don't understand why I don't watch any of my cds now that I have free time.
Just like I don't understand why I sleep in the sala knowing that there are so many mosquitos at night.
Just like I don't understand why I still can't wake up early despite sleeping in the sala and getting many mosquito bites.
Just like I don't understand why I'm suddenly blogging at 3 o'clock in the morning.
I don't understand, but something is always wrong. And I think that something is wrong with me.
I suddenly lost part of my ... passion.
I'm like an unfeeling, uncontrolled robotic entity wandering aimlessly with no goal.
Perhaps Dr Baclig was right when she looked deep into my eyes and said I have low energy and need to get out more, do taichi or yoga exercises, and yes, stay away from the PC which apparently is zapping away some of my life force.
I blame the TV too.
And the bed. But I don't have a bed. So the futon then.
I blame Lucky Me instant pansit canton too. Because I initially lost a lot of weight a year ago. Now I gained even more weight than before. My aunt was even shocked to see me. Shocked. Feh.
I am a sedentary person with a higher than normal BMI. I wish what's higher than normal was my IQ instead. I have a family history of hypertension, diabetes mellitus, dyslipidemia and obesity. I am definitely a good candidate for Syndrome X. I often sit still and stare blankly at the wall. I probably like sleeping too, since that's what I unconsciously do all the time. I'm probably narcoleptic. I want to see Dr Go soon. I probably need pyschiatric help. Or maybe I just want to see him again because he's good looking.
Yes, I'm rambling again. I don't understand why I'm spontaneously typing random phrases that apparently make no sense.
There is probably something wrong. I guess there is always something wrong with me.
Thursday, April 13, 2006
I wish I was Hanabishi Recca and can conjure up fiery dragons. Or I’m Feye-chan and can open up the gates of flames. I’ll even settle for owning a charmander who can have burning attacks. Or to be a little realistic, I’m plainly considering to become a careless smoker who throw cigarette butts all over the place.
So you ask, what’s your point?!!
My point is ... I WANT TO BURN THE MEDICAL RECORDS OFFICE!!!
[deep sigh]
I’ve been spending the past few days cooped up in the crampy records office with most of my fellow classmates, amidst stacks and piles of medical charts, trying in vain to complete all the medical charts that have passed through our hands for the past year. That means we have to fill in the incomplete discharge summaries, find the missing laboratory results and histopathology reports, make the dreaded unfinished progress notes (especially in Pedia T.T), accomplish blank postpartum notes and partographs in OB, write surgical techiniques for operations assisted, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera. We need to complete all these for the sake of a
Yahoo. O__o
Anyway, must finish those charts really fast if I want to make it in time for my flight on April 23. I still got so many things to prepare, to get, to buy, to return, to finish, to accomplish... I wonder if I have enough time. [worried] Tsk. I must not waste any time! I don’t have a choice. I have to fly by April 23.
At least Panda Land is starting to look way better now. I can now visualize the floor, the bed and my study table. And I found a lot of “lost” things. Teehee ^O^ Tomorrow, I shall start putting my stuffs in boxes.
It feels so sad ne... u__u
Monday, April 10, 2006
We went to watch Ice Age 2 today. It was so funny! ^O^ I love ALL the characters especially Sid, Scrat, and the possums Crash and Eddie. ^O^ Whoever made this movie really has a very wild sense of humor that got me and my family laughing our hearts out. However, my father said that he still likes the first movie better. I don’t know why, but he has a certain attachment to Ice Age 1. He said he watched it three times when he was still living in Manila.
I also bought anime stationeries in Expressions today. I couldn't resist. ^O^ They have Card Captor Sakura and Beyblade! I will go back to buy the FF X:2 and Tekken stationeries next time. I also bought blank cds today so that I can finally burn a copy of Hana Yori Dango anime. It's about time that I have my own copy in VCD and return those CDs to Hya already. [sheepish]
Anyway, I just finished watching another replay episode of It Started With A Kiss. Gosh, I really love this taiwanese drama! <3 <3 <3 Never mind that I’m watching random episodes and I don’t know the sequence of the story anymore. It has a really sweet feel to it! Makes you want to fall in love with that one and only person who is truly meant for you. Teehee~ ^O^ Anyway, Ate Yeyen has already ordered for this series (YEHEY!) so within the week, she’ll burn a copy for me!! She will also order the korean drama, My Girl, and of course I’ll also burn a copy for myself! I heard it’s really really sweet, and it’s a must-see. So, YEY! More new series for me after the Holy Week! ^O^ I feel so happy ne... Happy little puppy... LOLz ^O^
Now my primary concerns are:
1. Clearance from the hospital and school
---- This is really gonna take a long time and a huge amount of effort. I still have a huge pile of charts to finish. I think I will die… T__T
2. Comply requirements for internship
---- Need to have chest x-ray and blood tests done... Need to decide when to leave for Manila... Need to pack too...
3. THIS.
*sigh* Panda Land is still in the process of restoring itself. As of present, it’s practically uninhabitable. You can’t even see the floor. u__u
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Earlier tonight, I saw Zhou Hua Jian (Emil Chau Wakin) guesting on TV. Yatta! ^O^ I haven’t seen him for a while. He’s out with some new singles, Yu Ren (Rain Man) and I forgot the other one. It’s so cool! I’ve always love his kind of music. And I love his voice too! After seeing him perform, I immediately dug up his albums from my old cassette tape collection. Too bad our cassette tape player broke down so I can’t listen to his songs anymore. But it still doesn’t matter because I sang around ten of his songs to my heart’s content before finally calling it a night. ^O^
Today I had a haircut too. >.<
Friday, April 07, 2006
I was so pissed off earlier. I was trying out the Gundam Seed CDs I burned last month, and I realized, that most of the CDs were defective!! OMG! As in out of the 17 cds, I think only 3 or 4 were not damaged. I was mortified! Gah, I hate defective CDs! It must've been because it was a cheap brand of blank cd that I bought. That time CD-R King ran out of the CD brands that I usually buy, so I had to settle for that cheap brand. It looked pleasant enough so I bought it. How was I to know that this would be the outcome! [extremely sad] Anyway, I was so furious, I took out all the CDs from the CD case, placed them all in a plastic bag, and trashed the bag. Chikusho. What a waste of time and effort and money!! x___X
Anyway, setting that aside, I was tagged by Fangli and Suoh-san. I still don't exactly understand what it means to be "tagged", but I guess I have to reply to the same questions that they answered. That's OK, because I love answering questions. Teehee ^O^ Anyway, well, here goes...
How many schools did I go to?
Three. I spent kindergarten to elementary third grade in Kong Hua School, then transferred to Oro Christian Grace School and stayed there until high school graduation. Both are chinese schools, but KHS is catholic and OCGS is protestant. Then I went to Xavier University (Ateneo de Cagayan), a Jesuit university, for both my degrees in B.S. Biology and in Medicine.
Was I the studious nerd, or the last minute hero?
Before, I love to study. I understood what I studied. And I got good grades in return. So yes, I guess I was a bit of a studious nerd. But later on in Medicine, I eventually got tired of studying. I couldn't understand what I'm studying. And I got grades that don't make any sense as well. So I guess now I'm more of the last minute hero, always cramming disorganized thoughts and infos. Bad example. Huwag tularan. ^O^
Was I the class "taiko" or the teacher's pet?
Er, I don't think so. I never really stood out, despite the fact that I did relatively well in school and that I was a nice person.
What was the biggest rule I broke in school?
I think when I was in Grade 5(?), we got caught playing Paint Me A Picture and making loud noises in the stairways, so we were each given a minor offense and had to pick up trash around school. Also, I and 2 other classmates were made to stand in the hallway, with a ballpen in between our nose and lips (PLEASE, DON'T ASK. ^O^). And my chinese teacher once called my mom up to say that I played hooky, which was so not true. I actually went home that time because I was sick.
Three subjects I enjoyed.
Math, History, Chinese
Three teachers that inspired me.
1. Teacher Weny - My english teacher in elementary and in third year high school. She used to be mean before she became a Christian, but she really has a good mastery of english, which she imparted to us. In her own way, she cultivated and nurtured the gifts in us, so we can read and write and act and live with so much passion and discipline.
2. Siansi Siao (aka Siansi Puti ^O^) - At first we heard she was strict and mean, but we later on love her because we learned so much from her. She taught us how to read the chinese newspaper, how to use the dictionary, sentence structure, poetry and literary pieces and even the geography of china! She'd draw the map of China on the board, and then shade out the upper region because chi ge si Mongolia, um si tiong kok...(this is Mongolia and not China... LOL). She taught us to love learning chinese and not just to study without retaining anything. I miss her a lot. I wonder how she's doing now.
3. Um... can't think of anyone else anymore. XD XD
Thursday, April 06, 2006
I realized... that there are only two things that can make me do rapid involuntary blinking of my eyes.
1. Whenever a consultant asks me a question I couldn’t answer, and
2. Whenever I see my sempai.
Yep. After a long long time of
Of course, I feigned nonchalance. But the rapid involuntary blinking of my eyes said otherwise. Not to mention that I, as if by reflex, had to turn my head away from his direction. In a span of three seconds, I realized I was stripped of my pride and dignity. Of course he noticed. But he pretended to be indifferent as well.
When Hya and I started to leave the ER to go up to the Medical Records, we crossed paths again. This time I made sure I held my head up high in confidence. Hya said, “Hi, Doc!” so casually. And I, like a parrot, echoed the same words. BUT I SMILED. And... HE SMILED BACK... and then gave us a gentle pat on the shoulder. Hya first, because she was in front of me, then me. I almost laughed out loud in happiness. But I didn’t. Instead I absent-mindedly pushed Hya forward, and then started mumbling in gibberish. I told Hya that even if I like Dr Da-----, the first year surgery resident in NMMC, that feeling can’t even compare with how I felt, and will always feel, for my sempai. Dr Da----- doesn’t have even a slight chance at all if he stands next to my sempai. I will always like my sempai. Never mind that he doesn’t like me back. Never mind that I don’t even matter a single bit to him. It doesn’t matter because my heart chooses to like him. I cannot deny the reality of these emotions.
(By the way, excuse me while I gag at the absurdity of these statements. >.<)
Today I saw him again. But he didn’t see me. Or if he did, I acted as if I did not care. I think he wore a green shirt today. I’m not so sure because he was so far away. I guess I really should wear my glasses all the time. Hehehe ^___^
I still have 15 charts to finish in MRH, and then I will not have any reason to go back there again. I hope next time, for the last time, I can see my sempai again.
