I haven't really updated my blog lately about what's happening to my life, since I was too preoccupied ranting about ISWAK, but I've graduated last March and now I'm in Manila already, because I was accepted at Philippine General Hospital for my post-graduate intership (PGI).
Manila is totally new to me. I don't know any of the places. I don't know how to ride jeepneys. I don't know where to shop. I don't even know how to communicate fluently. And stuffs here are quite expensive! From internet to food to clothes to transportation to those shelves-of-mangas-that-I-so-love-dearly-but-can-only-stare-at-with-goo-goo-eyes, everything here needs money! And as a PGI who has to work with no monetary returns, money is something I don't have. u___u
About our intership, we will start on May 1. I will first rotate in Community Med and we will be traveling to Sto. Tomas, Batangas every week to immerse ourselves in the community. I met my groupmates already. They seem quite nice, but I'm still hesitant to talk with them because I have a hard time speaking in Tagalog. I can't seem to understand them too. Cho-baka de-su. What was the use in taking all those years of Filipino classes when I still can't communicate fluently in what is supposed to be my national language? XD
Anyway, we already had our intership orientation, and it seems that we will have loads of work in PGH. It's like doing clerkship all over again for one year, only we're in a much bigger hospital and we have to speak in Tagalog. XD I sometimes laugh whenever I imagine myself asking a patient, "Manong, anu po ang iyong binabati? Lumalabad po ba ang iyong ulo?!" u__u;;; *sigh* But the workload is really crazy. I feel a bit sad when I think of my other classmates acting like residents already in other private hospitals, and getting enough time to sleep and study for the board exams, while we are slaving away here at PGH, doing the things we already did for the past year. Leslie and Shay2x are so depressed now and they want to go home. I hate the work too but I chose this path and therefore I will have to deal with it. I told them that even if PGH will force me out, I'd rather die than leave. Some heavy words eh. LOL I'm surprised actually why I'm dead-set on staying or why I'm acting so *strong*. I don't even know why I'm in PGH. Perhaps this is God's will. Perhaps I'm just trying to save my face and my pride. I don't know.
What I do know is that I miss my family. I miss my father, my mother, my sister and my friends. I miss my dogs. I miss my friends. I miss every corner of CDO. I miss all the malls and the jeepneys and the motorelas and the fact that I can travel anywhere without having to worry about snatchers or traffics. I miss my life. I miss my CDs. I miss ISWAK. I miss my lousy dial up connection. I miss my room. I miss my posters. I miss everything that I chose to give up for a year just so I can be in this
I'm glad about a few things here though. They have lots of nice things (like mangas, hahaha) and nice foods. Even though I can't afford them, I still love looking at them. They have MRT too, and I like the feeling of riding it. Here I also have my relatives who don't know me but are now trying to know me. I met my Ahpe already (he gave me food and money, hehehehe) and tomorrow my 4-ko will fetch me and tour me around. Also here in Manila, I am closer to friends whom I only texted before, like Ate Cecille (who told me that I will always have a house in Pasig where I can relax), and Suoh-san (who was so uber-nice enough to take me to Megamall and Greenhills where the *goodies* are ^o^) and Trina and Fangli and Andrew and Okita-kun who I plan to meet eventually. There's even an Anime Illusions meeting on the 19th, but I'm not sure if I can go. All these I've always wanted to do before, and now I can do them. It's no longer a dream to meet all these people and to go to all these places. But still, yeah, it's expensive bah! ^O^ And I have to speak in Tagalog! LOL Oh. One more thing. There are a lot of cute guys here in Manila. *rotfl* J/K.
Right now I'm in Robinson's Place using an internet connection that costs PhP50 per hour (what the %^&*#!). I've been walking around the mall for like 3 hours but I still don't understand the structure of the building. I have no sense of direction after all. I want to buy/do a lot of things, yet I can't afford to buy/do them and I don't know where to go or what to do anymore. All these walking around only made me dizzy and tired. Yes, I am lost. I am bored. And my feet hurt. And that's why I'm here blogging, even though my thoughts are so disorganized.
Misakichan is in Manila. Yey. u___u
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